Silent whispers of hate

[_lush_kill_]

* Anxiety sucks
* I pretty much want to murder some people
* But I still love them
* Which is why I want to murder them
* People over use the term "love"
* If you like someone and want to be with them and love them it doesn't mean that you're IN love with them
* There is probably one person that isn't married that I know is actually in love * you should know who you are (hint : Muffin ) *
* I love him, but I'm not in love with him
* And nobody I've met is
* I think I love the idea more than it actually happening
* I don't know, either way I fucked it over already
* I don't even think I want it anymore
* But I know I do
* Ugh I don't know anything anymore
* I'm not going to fuck anything else up, and I'm not going to change the current situation, that's not what I want to do
* I need someone to talk to that I can trust
* I have that person
* And I'm going to go talk to her soon
* Somethings just need to happen
* I just let things bother me too much
* But I'm done showing that they do
* And I can say i don't care as much as I want
* I seem to have everyone fooled
* Including me