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i love being at the point i'm at in my life right now, relationship-wise. having no one/nothing to hold me back or distract me is really helping me focus on what really matters in my life right now. i am so thankful heath and i are no longer together; last spring, the semester we broke up, was the highest gpa i've had since i've been in college, and i know that is not a coincidence. it happened because i stopped thinking about him and started thinking about me.
i mean, sure, it was hard at first, and at the beginning i only excelled because i needed to bury myself in something and not think about heath. well, it worked, and i completely got over him in time. and now, here i am, standing on my own, being a strong person. i never could have been this way had i stayed with him. i am so happy and proud of myself for returning to my state of independence after it was jeopardized.
and is it horrible of me to be motivated by the thought of being better than him, and completely out of reach? :-/
i mean, sure, it was hard at first, and at the beginning i only excelled because i needed to bury myself in something and not think about heath. well, it worked, and i completely got over him in time. and now, here i am, standing on my own, being a strong person. i never could have been this way had i stayed with him. i am so happy and proud of myself for returning to my state of independence after it was jeopardized.
and is it horrible of me to be motivated by the thought of being better than him, and completely out of reach? :-/