fighting blindly
im not a fan of winter as it is but i dislike it even more because of the effects it has on me. Im bipolar and im having troubles especially this winter. When you don't get enough rays from the sun you can feel down or become depressed (anyone can get this) but it hits me hard. The thing that drives me crazy is i can't control it. I want to be happy and i want to be able to function normally but its like my brain has more control over me than i do. But my brain is me. I try countering it but just trying to stay stable is exhausting me to no end. The person i am is so opposite of what i feel i am, if that makes any sense at all. Sometimes i just want to throw in the towel but i wont. Im not sure why im writing this in here i just feel like putting it out there for whatever reason. I need some sunshine in my life, since theres no literal sunshine to do that im going to have to find something else...
ps writers week apps are due in a few weeks, cross your fingers
ps writers week apps are due in a few weeks, cross your fingers