filling up my empty days with red wine wondering what you think of me

[_lovely_sorrow_]

I don't know what to think of everything right now. I am a mixture of emotions some good others bad. Life has changed as it always does. I have changed. Things are getting kind of scary because I am starting to realize the future is right now, and there is no way I can slow things down.  I wish I had more time to step back and evaluate my life, but right now is defiantly not my moment. It is so weird for me to think everything I do this year could possibly be my last time. I am glad I changed my environment because those people do so many things I do not agree with now. I would be ashamed. Maybe I have taken things for granted, but I have no regrets. The past has made me who I am right now and I love that. I guess time can only tell how everything will play out, but right now life is at a peak. Later <3


Sad the way we always seem to pass by one another
Hiding, so afraid of the things we might discover
Caught up in a moment that only you can live in
You never know who's giving the air that you might breathe in
If you would get to know me
Maybe you would love me
I'm so ordinary
And if you would let me know you
Maybe I would show you
Wouldn't we be something
City lights shine down upon the place that I call home
Surrounded by a million but I feel like I'm alone
And I might be a nobody to you
But somewhere, they're gonna listen