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I had a pretty big fight with my mom tonight. I am just so sick of always working and never getting to spend any of my money. I am not ready to let go of my youth yet and I am still under age...I don't understand why they wont help me out at all. I am just scared that I am going to crash and burn. I guess it is part of life. I don't know I am just in a blah mood. I have changed so much over the summer it is not easy to talk to the same people anymore, and honestly I am not to sure I miss it. As long as I have Amber and Chad I am ok. Amber is always there...and Chad has been in my shoes he completely understands everything I am going through right now. Don't get me wrong I am not complainging about my life. I love life....I love my family... I am just stressed. Growing up always sounded so fun when we were little. People always tell me how proud they are that I manage to support myself for the most part. I am just afraid once college starts I will let them down. I know the people that truly care for me will be there and that is all that matters. One thing I have learned in the past year is that the people who love you the most are the ones who are there when everyone else decides they need a "break" or that you just don't fit into their social agenda. Now that people have time for me now... I don't think I want to spend my time with them. Monday something pretty big is happening in my life. I'm not going to talk about it though because honestly I don't care too much about it. I just wish I didn't have to miss my first few classes. My toe really itches. Hah I know that was random but I felt like sharing. I don't think anyone reads this anymore so I am not concerned. I wonder what it would be like if on graduation day every single person got a snapshot from the future of themselves in 10 years. Alrighty well enough with the rambling night loves <3