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one more thing. i realized a few days ago that um well i dont want to see someone anymore. i just dont because seeing them makes me rethink my life and i dont want to do that right now also i feel the time that i had spent was kind of a lie. but i must say its not that i dont want to see them because i do love them and i wish i could spend way more time with them but its that i cant see them because i know the consequences. i know myself too well.