victoria secret

[_lovelorn]

yeah so yesterday i leave to go on a shopping trip adventure (by myself!! o yeah i was so happy my dad let me go) and i get to victoria secrets which is incredibly packed. and the lines are forever long andi have this $25 gift card that i cant use on sale items and guess what everything was on sale. so yeah its sucked cuz i didnt know this till after i got to the register and after the mall was closed. yeah so whatever i have to go back and get a different size cuz i got it too small anyway (o yeah believe it the bra was too small) anyway. i called clare as i was coming home and i felt sad because im sitting here having a good time driving around because i wanted to go out but i had no one to go out with and i was thinking my car ride would have been much more pleasant if she were along. i was really tired last night...i guess cuz nothing was going on so i went to bed and slept in way to late. i kept waking up and falling back asleep and i caught myself. and i was like get up but i told myself i couldnt cuz i was dreaming about the new schoool year and how great fall was going to be. which i thne realized that i shouldnt get my hopes up cuz this new fall will probably not come close the the happiness i felt during my freshman year fall. and there will never be a way to replay that fall, i mean i can try very hard to replay it with someone new but things will never be the same. yet that shouldnt get me down and i should savor fall and the smells and sights more than ever this year because california doesnt have a fall. thats the one thing i willl all miss about illinois and hate about california. the only thing. anyway this doesnt mean i want it to be fall and i am not ready for school at all its just the smell of fall that i need in me. this gets me thinking to another dream i had a few days ago i think maybe friday night. it was a very strange dream that involved my grandma. well see my grandma who lives here, my dads mom, used to take care of me when i was a little girl while my parents worked. so in this dream i didnt feel young i felt the age i was today and my mom dropped me off at a corner market where my grandma was waiting for me. so i went in i found her and she looked like she did when i was young. she look more healthy and she wore her usual dress with the black knitted vest over it and held her big purse. and she was talking to me but i could understand her. like i knew she was speaking spanish but i understood as if it was english. and she told me to pick out the pandulce i wanted and then she said you know you should really say sorry to them. and i was like your right. so she said give them that blue elephant cookie so i was like sounds good. then we left the market and started walking home. and then she said something to me and i totally didnt understand and alli heard was spanish and the only words i understood were mal and tambien and i told her that and she laughed at me. and then i woke up. weird right? yeah then i tell my dad and hes like you know thats funny cuz when you were a little kid she used to take you to get pandulce all the time and thats why you love it so much today and they used to have these little cookies that were shaped like pigs but they looked like elephants and im like what? i've never ever seen that before and hes like you dont rememember but you used to see that stuff all the time. and im like omg weird you know and who would she want me to say sorry to?

anyway on another note. my dad just bought me 4 tickets to see motion city and im like thats cool right buy why so many and who shall i go with. and hes like you have to call this kyle kid and invite hime to go and invite hime to bring 2 other friends. and im like omg i am not calling anyeone. thats so awkward. fuck so im gonna be like hi this is heather my dad is albert and you dont know me or my dad but your dad knows my dad. ewww no and what if he doesnt even liek motion city. this makes me sick. i need to go swimming now or go to the mall.

love
heather