Oh yea, and all this stuff too.
Yea, I'm probably going to make a new journal. I can't really stand to see the other journal entries. Not because I think it's gross or disgusting or whatever, I just really feel like I'm not her anymore. I still have my hangups, but for fuck's sake I'm happy. Unlike
quodxmexnutrit, which I'm sure none of you knew I had, or maybe I told you all. Who knows. For the first time in my life, this past term, I wanted to not want to starve myself. I got stressed and occasionally did want to, but I actually kept myself in check and said 'no, I don't want to starve myself.' I'm not sure I can get much different. It's been a 21 year long battle. It's still going on, but I'm winning, dammit.
The point is that I'm not _Lotus_Blossom_ anymore. So I'm oging to create something new. Fuck, I'm no longer afraid to love someone. (it's been a good three years or four years). I'm actually fixing myself and moving forward. Which is why I get a little impatient with those that won't, by the way. If I can do it, why can't anyone else? Man it's kind of fun to write this shit down. It's been a while.
I'll edit this with a new name soon.
xxdoxorxdiexx
sorry for all the x's someone had the one I wanted. it's cool. it's core. :P. add it or whatever.
quodxmexnutrit, which I'm sure none of you knew I had, or maybe I told you all. Who knows. For the first time in my life, this past term, I wanted to not want to starve myself. I got stressed and occasionally did want to, but I actually kept myself in check and said 'no, I don't want to starve myself.' I'm not sure I can get much different. It's been a 21 year long battle. It's still going on, but I'm winning, dammit.
The point is that I'm not _Lotus_Blossom_ anymore. So I'm oging to create something new. Fuck, I'm no longer afraid to love someone. (it's been a good three years or four years). I'm actually fixing myself and moving forward. Which is why I get a little impatient with those that won't, by the way. If I can do it, why can't anyone else? Man it's kind of fun to write this shit down. It's been a while.
I'll edit this with a new name soon.
xxdoxorxdiexx
sorry for all the x's someone had the one I wanted. it's cool. it's core. :P. add it or whatever.