do you believe in what you want?
I am so bored. Almost to the point of it being painful. Everyone is out, having fun, everyone but me. Maybe I'll read. Maybe I'll write overdue thank-you notes. Or maybe I'll just waste my time updating an online journal. Classic.
Lately it feels like I've been running in place. Not getting anywhere at all. It seems no matter the responsiblity I take upon myself, the things I plan, the plans I see through; they are all futile. I'm no older than I was three years ago to my parents. I'm no more responsible, none the wiser. My opinions are cute, but never considered. I'm sick of watching my endless attempts at pragmatism entertain others, never convincing them.
I guess it's all the way it goes. I guess that is how life works. Some people just aren't taken seriously at first. & I guess I'll live through it. It's nothing, really. Just another stupid overanalyzation to fill some bored synapse of my thought. Spill my petty rambles on some electronic journal. Blah, blah, blah. Typical.
I don't want to regret the things I never did.
Lately it feels like I've been running in place. Not getting anywhere at all. It seems no matter the responsiblity I take upon myself, the things I plan, the plans I see through; they are all futile. I'm no older than I was three years ago to my parents. I'm no more responsible, none the wiser. My opinions are cute, but never considered. I'm sick of watching my endless attempts at pragmatism entertain others, never convincing them.
I guess it's all the way it goes. I guess that is how life works. Some people just aren't taken seriously at first. & I guess I'll live through it. It's nothing, really. Just another stupid overanalyzation to fill some bored synapse of my thought. Spill my petty rambles on some electronic journal. Blah, blah, blah. Typical.
I don't want to regret the things I never did.