Where the hell has everything gone?
Hello dolls,
what has happened? Can someone please tell me. I started reading an old diary of mine and it made me think how much I've changed, and how much other people have changed, and how much my life has changed. And then my brothers been watching home movies lately and I sat down and watched one, my dad was in it, and it made me realize how much I wish I could go back in time. Even if the happy family was all a lie, it felt real to me. And even if my parents weren't still together I just wish my dad could be here. It makes me think, will he be here for the important things in my life? Will he watch me graduate? If I get married, will he give me away? and not even the important things just the little things, I miss it so much. And I miss so much how just everything else used to be, like friends, I feel like I don't know anyone anymore. I imagine things will be better, and perhaps things will change as they always do, and maybe I will be more content with my life. And it's not that anything is bad and it's not that Im doing bad or horrible or anything like that, I guess I am just reflecting on things write now, and wishing I could have them back. Well that's enough of that. Last night I went to the play, it was good, I am going to go see it many more times. Then today I went and got a library card! lol. I lost mine and have been needing to get a new one. I checked out a couple books which I am excited to read, but I wont have for a few days because they were at a different library. Then I hung out with my brother some, god, he is so mean, all them hormones! ya then I made danced for like a long time, dont know why, I guess it was a random idea I had and so I danced for like 45 minutes. lol. well thats about all I have to say.
take care sweethearts,
Jordan
what has happened? Can someone please tell me. I started reading an old diary of mine and it made me think how much I've changed, and how much other people have changed, and how much my life has changed. And then my brothers been watching home movies lately and I sat down and watched one, my dad was in it, and it made me realize how much I wish I could go back in time. Even if the happy family was all a lie, it felt real to me. And even if my parents weren't still together I just wish my dad could be here. It makes me think, will he be here for the important things in my life? Will he watch me graduate? If I get married, will he give me away? and not even the important things just the little things, I miss it so much. And I miss so much how just everything else used to be, like friends, I feel like I don't know anyone anymore. I imagine things will be better, and perhaps things will change as they always do, and maybe I will be more content with my life. And it's not that anything is bad and it's not that Im doing bad or horrible or anything like that, I guess I am just reflecting on things write now, and wishing I could have them back. Well that's enough of that. Last night I went to the play, it was good, I am going to go see it many more times. Then today I went and got a library card! lol. I lost mine and have been needing to get a new one. I checked out a couple books which I am excited to read, but I wont have for a few days because they were at a different library. Then I hung out with my brother some, god, he is so mean, all them hormones! ya then I made danced for like a long time, dont know why, I guess it was a random idea I had and so I danced for like 45 minutes. lol. well thats about all I have to say.
take care sweethearts,
Jordan