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[_lost_in_you]

yup, i'm still up
i think i'm going to stay up all night
seeing as how i'm grounded tomorrow anyways
and i can sleep all day if i want to

i think it would be so wonderful to see the sun rise
i've been thinking so much tonight
kind of because no one in their right mind would be up this late
but i am, and i'm not in my right mind

i'm so confused, about love and life
everything i do lately seems to get me in trouble
or it's immature, wow do i hate that word
what do my parents want from me

i'm sorry i'm not perfect
and i am going to go out and have fun
you're only a teenager once
you've gotta live it up

so, get over it

..love
something i long for
and seem to screw up a lot
i miss the feeling
you know, to love and be loved in return

wow this is kind of deep
scary
i try not to show this side of me
i have a feeling i'll regret writing this entry later
but this is my journal and i should see free to say whatever i want

and i'll have to admit
it's hard trying to hold up a smile
even when you feel like crying

but i do love my friends
what would i do with out them
they make me smile :)
and they are the reason i stay sane

it's almost 4:30 now
i wonder what time the sun will rise
hopefully i don't accidentally fall asleep
i think i expressed all that was on my mind
well almost, but that will do

i'll update again after i get some rest
i think i need it
i'm stressed
<3