Sleepless in Round rock
Another sleepless night, it's really my own fault though.
Lying in bed just thinking for 2 hours, boo. I wish I could turn off my brain sometimes and just fall asleep to a gentle buzz produced by the sounds of my pillow. I've been having some really cool dreams lately, it's times like this when I wish I could stay in them, or at least produce them into reality and actually have a lot of fun.. I really like the dreams I've been having lately though, I hope this trend never ends..
My sister turns 17 tomorrow, it's wierd. It's weird how meaningless crap like birthdays make you think about life and how short it is... but yeah, I'll not get into that at the moment.
Music and dreams, I wish I could just live inside both things, I'd never have to worry about anything, it'd be so nice. Music never threatens you like life does, music never says "you have to make a decision, it will affect everything" music never depends on you for anything, it's always there to help you through anything though.
I made my sister some pancakes and put them in the fridge, I set my alarm for 7 am, I will heat them up, smother them in syrup and wake her up with them, then go back to sleep..or maybe proceed to sleep for the first time this night.. well that's the way it seems like it will be going.
I kind of am worried about stuff right now, I know everyone is worried about something almost all the time though, I just miss the times when I didn't really worry about anything, oh wait, I was like 3.. :D
My dad is supposedly coming home this weekend maybe, meh, one more person to help me move into my dorm I guess. I am feeling pretty damn lonely lately, it seems like the only time I get out of the house is when Natalie drags me out of it. If I had a car that actually fucking ran, im sure I wouldn't be as lonely as I am though... FUCK YOU DAD... woops sorry. Kind of let that one out... :x
There are alot of movies out that I want to see, but that seems so trivial... I wish I could just go work at some diner making 2 bucks an hour in some no name town and find a little niche for me to live in, but I guess that'd be the easy way out of things that may not even be a problem. It's really true that people fear what they don't understand, I am scared shitless of the future.. I really am.
I guess im kind of curious, if you are still reading this maybe you will answer...
What do you think the meaning of life is? like what do you live for? What makes it worth it to you?
Just curious
But not curious like that.
Nixk
Lying in bed just thinking for 2 hours, boo. I wish I could turn off my brain sometimes and just fall asleep to a gentle buzz produced by the sounds of my pillow. I've been having some really cool dreams lately, it's times like this when I wish I could stay in them, or at least produce them into reality and actually have a lot of fun.. I really like the dreams I've been having lately though, I hope this trend never ends..
My sister turns 17 tomorrow, it's wierd. It's weird how meaningless crap like birthdays make you think about life and how short it is... but yeah, I'll not get into that at the moment.
Music and dreams, I wish I could just live inside both things, I'd never have to worry about anything, it'd be so nice. Music never threatens you like life does, music never says "you have to make a decision, it will affect everything" music never depends on you for anything, it's always there to help you through anything though.
I made my sister some pancakes and put them in the fridge, I set my alarm for 7 am, I will heat them up, smother them in syrup and wake her up with them, then go back to sleep..or maybe proceed to sleep for the first time this night.. well that's the way it seems like it will be going.
I kind of am worried about stuff right now, I know everyone is worried about something almost all the time though, I just miss the times when I didn't really worry about anything, oh wait, I was like 3.. :D
My dad is supposedly coming home this weekend maybe, meh, one more person to help me move into my dorm I guess. I am feeling pretty damn lonely lately, it seems like the only time I get out of the house is when Natalie drags me out of it. If I had a car that actually fucking ran, im sure I wouldn't be as lonely as I am though... FUCK YOU DAD... woops sorry. Kind of let that one out... :x
There are alot of movies out that I want to see, but that seems so trivial... I wish I could just go work at some diner making 2 bucks an hour in some no name town and find a little niche for me to live in, but I guess that'd be the easy way out of things that may not even be a problem. It's really true that people fear what they don't understand, I am scared shitless of the future.. I really am.
I guess im kind of curious, if you are still reading this maybe you will answer...
What do you think the meaning of life is? like what do you live for? What makes it worth it to you?
Just curious
But not curious like that.
Nixk