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I havent been as active online as I have been in the past few months. I'm not creating anything new and I'm fine with being on break. Right now I'm dead broke between blessings and just kinda floating around. My mind is everywhere but getting my business back on track right now. The last 2 weekends have been spent entertaining guests and its been a nice distraction but when I get online and start reading blogs I feel lazy and uninspired. I dunno what to do. This taking a break biz is harder than I expected. Right now my desk is in the middle of a pile of fabric and I dont feel like sewing anything.
I'm at work and I just feel like I'm not doing much of anything. I got thru these phases of doing too much and then not doing enough. I'm sick of it. The Libra in me CRAVES balance. I'm finding that things in my life are way too lopsided. I threw away close to $100 worth of food last week (shrimps and red snappers) because I left them in the fridge too long while I was preparing for the bbq. My time management is fucked. I need to learn how to do things on schedule, stay on task and stay focused. Its very hard for me to do these things and I think at 24 I should be able to manage my time better. If I were able to get my life running like a fine tuned machine I would be so good. Everything would be so much better. I feel like there is so much to do and I'm just puttering along. I keep finding new things that I want to do without finishing the old things. I'm losing enthusiam for my projects and wasting money on things because I'm so implusive. I'm losing focus. I dont know what to do to get it back.
If I make another list I'm gonna go crazy. The more lists I make the more shyt I realize I need to do and then paralysis sets. Nothing can get done when I'm this way. Last year I was trying to get more disciplined but it didnt really work. This year I started off okay but everything spiraled out of control and now I feel so bad that I let myself lose momentum like this.
had a spark when you started but now you're just garbage
*screams*
I'm at work and I just feel like I'm not doing much of anything. I got thru these phases of doing too much and then not doing enough. I'm sick of it. The Libra in me CRAVES balance. I'm finding that things in my life are way too lopsided. I threw away close to $100 worth of food last week (shrimps and red snappers) because I left them in the fridge too long while I was preparing for the bbq. My time management is fucked. I need to learn how to do things on schedule, stay on task and stay focused. Its very hard for me to do these things and I think at 24 I should be able to manage my time better. If I were able to get my life running like a fine tuned machine I would be so good. Everything would be so much better. I feel like there is so much to do and I'm just puttering along. I keep finding new things that I want to do without finishing the old things. I'm losing enthusiam for my projects and wasting money on things because I'm so implusive. I'm losing focus. I dont know what to do to get it back.
If I make another list I'm gonna go crazy. The more lists I make the more shyt I realize I need to do and then paralysis sets. Nothing can get done when I'm this way. Last year I was trying to get more disciplined but it didnt really work. This year I started off okay but everything spiraled out of control and now I feel so bad that I let myself lose momentum like this.
had a spark when you started but now you're just garbage
*screams*