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So, I graduated! Its crazy! I'm really excited though. I feel a lot of changes have happened in the last few months and that combined with summer is a great feeling. I had, SUCH a great time in high school and I wouldnt've done it any other way. I made friends with the greatest (and not so greatest) people, I learned so much, had such a good time, fell in love for the first time, just so much has happened, and these last four years have been such an experience. I've learned a lot, thank you to those who were part of it I had so much fun. & for all of you who doubted me, I did end up going all four years through high school without drinking or drugs, and I won a scholarship for it.
Senior year especially was odd, the majority of my best friends left for college, and it forced me to make friends with people I generally wouldnt've made friends with, which was good. I met a lot of really cool people and for the first time I felt like I was part of my class. Especially towards the very end this year was way fun.
Grad night at disneyland was fucking amazing, but it went by SO FAST. I guess it all went by so fast. That sounds so cliche but it did.
I woke up this morning at like 9 & I couldn't get back to sleep because I think for the first time I realized that at the end of this summer everyone's seperating. And in a way for me especially its really scary, because most everyone else is almost like leaving me behind. My friends are all going to New York or Boston or Phillidelphia or Santa Cruz or Northern Cali or what have you to start new lives and roots, where nobody knows anybody and in a way their forced to go out of their way to make friends. I'm still going to be living here, going to a commuter school. But thats not the scariest part, I guess I've always been terrified of goodbyes and loosing people, and this year is no different. People like Aaron & Asal come to mind, it's just wierd that they're not going to be here for me to call up next year. It's scary and in a selfish way it makes me kinda sad. I mean I no nobodys dying they'll be back for breaks and what not but, I just hope we all keep in touch, even though I know some of us won't. I have a great group of friends, and I don't want to loose them.
This summer is gonna be raging, and I feel like I'm going to appreciate my friends more knowing that we have a time limit. I love you guys, thanks for everything.
Senior year especially was odd, the majority of my best friends left for college, and it forced me to make friends with people I generally wouldnt've made friends with, which was good. I met a lot of really cool people and for the first time I felt like I was part of my class. Especially towards the very end this year was way fun.
Grad night at disneyland was fucking amazing, but it went by SO FAST. I guess it all went by so fast. That sounds so cliche but it did.
I woke up this morning at like 9 & I couldn't get back to sleep because I think for the first time I realized that at the end of this summer everyone's seperating. And in a way for me especially its really scary, because most everyone else is almost like leaving me behind. My friends are all going to New York or Boston or Phillidelphia or Santa Cruz or Northern Cali or what have you to start new lives and roots, where nobody knows anybody and in a way their forced to go out of their way to make friends. I'm still going to be living here, going to a commuter school. But thats not the scariest part, I guess I've always been terrified of goodbyes and loosing people, and this year is no different. People like Aaron & Asal come to mind, it's just wierd that they're not going to be here for me to call up next year. It's scary and in a selfish way it makes me kinda sad. I mean I no nobodys dying they'll be back for breaks and what not but, I just hope we all keep in touch, even though I know some of us won't. I have a great group of friends, and I don't want to loose them.
This summer is gonna be raging, and I feel like I'm going to appreciate my friends more knowing that we have a time limit. I love you guys, thanks for everything.