everything sucks blahblahblah.
Today was really sucky, well for most of it. I woke up late again- ARGH- and I thought I was gonna be late for Psych and I was just pissed and not awake yet, and then I had the exam, which I really don't know if I passed or not... and if I change my major, I need this class for my flowsheet. So I need to do well. Anyway, after the disaster that was the psych test, I went to Dunkin's and then to English class, where I had like a nervous breakdown and had to leave and spend like twenty minutes sitting in the hallway crying and trying to breathe while attempting to not pass out or get sick. It was fucking horrible. I just have so much on my plate right now. I have two 10-page papers due soon, I should be working on them, but I'm so behind on them. Don't even get me STARTED on Spanish, we have a test on Monday and I haven't really read much of the chapter, I have none of the homework done, I am SO lost in that fucking class, I just don't get it anymore, and I know it's not all because I haven't been studying my ass off. I just don't have the time to learn a second fucking language at age eighteen. It's so hard especially when like everyone else in the class took a billion years of Spanish in high school and just want an easy A. I hate that class I hate that fucking class! I am so scared I'm going to fail everything for the rest of the semester and it will fuck with my GPA and I'm just so fucking stressed out because of it. I want to withdraw. I don't know. Ugh.
So yeah, I saw Katie around two p.m., and we hung out for a while, 'til around nine. It was nice, I like seeing her (well, obviously) but it was hard because we were both really tired and I guess she gets overly emotional when she's over tired so like we had issues, sort of. Ugh today just fucking sucked. I'm so angry at life in general right now. I know my therapist Kate has really bent over backwards to try and fit me in her schedule and to make it convenient for me, so she was mad when I said there was something I wanted to go to the next time we're supposed to meet and ugh I can't even type about it, I am SO pissed off GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. So then I had to tell Katie that I couldn't go to this thing that I promised her I would go to and she was really upset and I felt shitty and I hated it.
I'm so mad now. Fuck.
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Thought I'd add in that I hate Thanksgiving. I hate next week. UGH I WANT TO PUNCH THINGS.
So yeah, I saw Katie around two p.m., and we hung out for a while, 'til around nine. It was nice, I like seeing her (well, obviously) but it was hard because we were both really tired and I guess she gets overly emotional when she's over tired so like we had issues, sort of. Ugh today just fucking sucked. I'm so angry at life in general right now. I know my therapist Kate has really bent over backwards to try and fit me in her schedule and to make it convenient for me, so she was mad when I said there was something I wanted to go to the next time we're supposed to meet and ugh I can't even type about it, I am SO pissed off GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. So then I had to tell Katie that I couldn't go to this thing that I promised her I would go to and she was really upset and I felt shitty and I hated it.
I'm so mad now. Fuck.
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Thought I'd add in that I hate Thanksgiving. I hate next week. UGH I WANT TO PUNCH THINGS.