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As soon as I woke up this morning, I felt a pang of something in my stomach. Was that cold feet? I don't think so, because.. I really really really want to marry Alice. But I didn't and still dunno what it is. Maybe I'm just nervous. Think I'm just nervous.
What if we can't support ourselves? What if something terrible happens (again)? What if..
It's pointless to think like that. We can take care of ourselves. I haven't been saving up all year just to.. be nervous about it.
Think Alice is going to like the place I found. It's in the south. Somerset. Found a few other places, too, but I like this one best. Lots of land. Small little place, but good enough.
If I had more money..
Can't believe I'm getting married. I wish dad was here to see it. His Frank! Getting married! Making something of himself! Bet he'd be proud. Bet he is proud, where ever he is.
Just wish he could be there and see it, is all.
She's going to look so beautiful. She won't let me see her until it happens, but I know she's.. she's going to be beautiful. It's going to be beautiful. I hope she doesn't cry, 'cause then I'll cry and we'll ruin our own wedding.
marriage.