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i think steve is the only person i have ever fully loved. you know, that unquestioning, unwavering, but not-naive kind of love that we all claim to have felt. i care about a great many (perhaps too many) people, but while everyone has their own significance, i don't think i love anyone else the way i love steve. i love my mother conditionally, i love my father superficially, i love my friends noncommittally, i love my other family members dutifully but doubtfully, and i love lovers without completely trusting them. steve is just different, always has been, for as long as i can remember.
reminds me of a conversation i had with abbey recently. fucked up, indeed.
reminds me of a conversation i had with abbey recently. fucked up, indeed.