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Ah seriously i am psyched for everything.
I've resigned myself to never meeting a boy who is as happy nor as alive as i am. Debi and I discussed this the other day and i realised that there a couple of people who have more potential than others (maybe everyone with a bit of PMA influence who knows?) But the fact is me and her have this insatiable lust for life, we dont agree with baggage and stress and depression and we dont relate to people who dont make the best out of their situation. I've spent my whole teenage life hoping someone else will have the same views so she was a god send, but its looking increasingly unlikely that any boys we know feel like this. Of course they exist, and i know its a pretty high requirement to expect but i dont think its too much to ask! Dont get me wrong, every day im seeing more and more potential in most people around me (especially the person ive spent most of my time with recently). Every conversation that consists of "i love my life" tends to incite someone else to say the same thing but i really really want all the people i love to genuinely feel like that. It looks like summer is helping at least!!
Perhaps it will be good to have the challenge of helping someone grow to love their life? And i guess the main person im hoping will come round to my way of thinking has stuff they need to deal with before this is possible, which is understandable. But seriously guys!! everything is awesome. You only have to listen to some Death Is Not Glamorous lyrics, eat a really fucking good meal with some rad folks and lie in the sunshine with a crimethInc book all day to see what i mean.
I've resigned myself to never meeting a boy who is as happy nor as alive as i am. Debi and I discussed this the other day and i realised that there a couple of people who have more potential than others (maybe everyone with a bit of PMA influence who knows?) But the fact is me and her have this insatiable lust for life, we dont agree with baggage and stress and depression and we dont relate to people who dont make the best out of their situation. I've spent my whole teenage life hoping someone else will have the same views so she was a god send, but its looking increasingly unlikely that any boys we know feel like this. Of course they exist, and i know its a pretty high requirement to expect but i dont think its too much to ask! Dont get me wrong, every day im seeing more and more potential in most people around me (especially the person ive spent most of my time with recently). Every conversation that consists of "i love my life" tends to incite someone else to say the same thing but i really really want all the people i love to genuinely feel like that. It looks like summer is helping at least!!
Perhaps it will be good to have the challenge of helping someone grow to love their life? And i guess the main person im hoping will come round to my way of thinking has stuff they need to deal with before this is possible, which is understandable. But seriously guys!! everything is awesome. You only have to listen to some Death Is Not Glamorous lyrics, eat a really fucking good meal with some rad folks and lie in the sunshine with a crimethInc book all day to see what i mean.