farewell, so long.

[_londonxlies]

one time i fell down the stairs and had to get three stitches in my eyebrow.
when i was little, i used to pretend that i was a princess hiding from hit men and made tents out of the sheets on the clothes-line to hide under.
i am a rabbit and supposed to be the luckiest sign of all, but this is not so.
i love a lot of people and i am afraid i only love them because i know they are unattainable.
i am unhappy when i am not doing drugs.
i am unhappy when i am doing drugs.
i am unhappy when im surrounded by people.
i am unhappy when i am all alone.
i am unhappy because i can find no way to reverse the situation.
i find broken things, like dishes and branches, to be the most beautiful. i collect these things to remind myself of their ceaseless beauty, and when i look in the mirror, there is a broken girl. who is ugly ugly ugly.
im sick of all of this.

i wish you were here with me right now.
anyone.

i dont know how to keep it together anymore.

this doesnt make sense to anyone.