Arggg
I haven't felt like this in a really long time.
I want to write what I'm feeling but I can't find the words. I don't even know how to start this, all I know is that by the end of this entry I probably won't have made any sense at all becuase I'll be trying to sound *sigh* smart or something. Whatever. I'm tired, and I've had that stupid feeling where you want to cry, but you don't know WHY, for the last couple of hours. Maybe I have that feeling becuase I'm so tired. And its no wonder, I mean I really should be in bed right now, its 4AM. But I just seem to lay there but I don't fall asleep.
Ok, so I feel sad?
Oh man forget it. I can't make sense of anything right now.
I was listening to Nsync though and boy, do some of their songs make me all sappy.
Christ. I'm so weird.
And oh yeah, I've been hearing things lately that have made me realize stuff I don't think I've ever wanted to.
And oh yeah, drama. With one of my best friends.
Rofl, best friends.
He completely ruined what best friends meant to me.
Thanks asshole.
Too bad I still love you.
EDIT: 4:07
Oh. I just realized that maybe, I'm not such a good person after all.
I think I really mean it when I say I suck.
I think I really, REALLY do.