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Everything has really sucked for a while. I'm already starting to feel better. Today I left Tony's and made and actually got an appointment to talk to someone about my panic attacks and how depressed I've been feeling. I'm really glad I went. I'm starting on medication for my panic attacks as well as depression. They also gave me instant uppers to help me through the next month until my medicine kicks in. I'm very glad. I feel like now that I've told someone, other than Tony, how upset I've been I might start feeling better.
As of this morning Tony and I have spent two nights together and have had sex four times. It really sucks how good our sex is. It's seriously the best sex I've ever had. It's just so much fun. We're both able to talk about what we want to do or try and are just so comfortable around each other. This morning we talked a little. He got really upset, but I'm glad it happened. At least it's not my fault at all that our relationship went south. It just really sucks that he has something wrong with him that he feels obligated to always hangout with whoever he's dating. I wish he would have understood that when I said I understood he was busy and we wouldn't see each other as much I was serious and not upset. It's been one week since we broke up. Jeeze. That sucks. Part of me is really happy that he isn't feeling so trapped, but part of me really wishes things could have been better. I hate the fact he's hanging out with jeneen more. She's not even a good friend, unless your idea of a good friend is someone who completely changes themselves to suit you. Stinks.
I'm really excited to have school be over and not have to worry about any of that until the fall. I am also excited to be on my own for the summer. I've always gone home. I have some really good friends here, including tony, and I'm excited to go on trips, camp and swim with them.
I'm excited to feel better about me.
As of this morning Tony and I have spent two nights together and have had sex four times. It really sucks how good our sex is. It's seriously the best sex I've ever had. It's just so much fun. We're both able to talk about what we want to do or try and are just so comfortable around each other. This morning we talked a little. He got really upset, but I'm glad it happened. At least it's not my fault at all that our relationship went south. It just really sucks that he has something wrong with him that he feels obligated to always hangout with whoever he's dating. I wish he would have understood that when I said I understood he was busy and we wouldn't see each other as much I was serious and not upset. It's been one week since we broke up. Jeeze. That sucks. Part of me is really happy that he isn't feeling so trapped, but part of me really wishes things could have been better. I hate the fact he's hanging out with jeneen more. She's not even a good friend, unless your idea of a good friend is someone who completely changes themselves to suit you. Stinks.
I'm really excited to have school be over and not have to worry about any of that until the fall. I am also excited to be on my own for the summer. I've always gone home. I have some really good friends here, including tony, and I'm excited to go on trips, camp and swim with them.
I'm excited to feel better about me.