"The way I'm powerless to dictate my own moods...."

[_living_for_him]

Okay, so God worked in wonderful ways tonight. We were at church and I kept feeling like He was trying to tell me something... And then He told me to go. But I was like, I dunno where to go. So, I went outside because David said he felt the Spirit really strong out there and I felt like I should go out there and pray. So, I did that and then saw what I think was the outline of Jesus. He told me to go upstairs and talk to Cortney and David. To rejoice in His name and tell them how wonderful He is. I didn't really do much of that, but I did go upstairs. Once I was up there I talked to them for a few minutes and I saw the outline of Him again in the next room. So I stood up and went in there. When I got in there He told me that He has heard my cries. And He knows how lonely I have been and He doesn't want me worrying about that anymore because He was sending someone to me. I almost cried. lol Jesus is amazing! God is amazing! I'm really glad He told me that because I was honestly thinking I was never meant to have someone like that in my life... I thought it just wasn't meant for me. The only problem is... I have no clue WHEN He is going to send me this awesome guy. I can only pray and hope that it is soon. God, I want it to be soon. I need it to be soon, I really do. But the point is, I know I'll have it someday and I just can't wait till that wonderful day comes. lol

I dunno why, but I still can't help feeling lonely. I think I'll always be lonely until I find him. It really does suck because I have no power to control my own moods. Feeling lonely... well I'd say it's pretty much one of the worst things you can feel. I just need some prayers. Anyone wanna pray for me? I'd appreciate it a bunch!