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i have a girl problem. (side note: i hate having girl problems)
i, just like purljamber, have a **"Cute But Unfortunately Married Coworker"**.. or atleast i did until he stopped wearing his wedding ring a few months ago. i never asked what happened, because he never volunteered the info, but found out in february that he and his wife got divorced. apparently, they just grew apart, didn't have any common interests, she fell out of love, and moved out of the house. so **CBUMC and i were always flirty, but upon his newfound singlehood, the flirting has become INTENSE.
last week, we covered cafeteria duty together. usually, we take that 45 minutes or so to really get to know each other, and flirt a whole lot. we've done this several times now, and can recite each others life history. on friday, there was a lot of giggling and arm touching, and then he blurted out that he had discovered me on match.com. now, i registered for match months ago, but never really got into the online dating thing. i've always been one to just "let things happen" in regards to my love life, and going out to pursue a relationship seemed too much work for me.
i asked him why he didn't say something before, and the conversation went something like this... he said that he thought of sending me a message on there, but wasn't sure how i'd respond. he said that he had thought about the two of us dating for awhile, but thinks that dating someone you work with can be tricky not because of the possibility of things not working out.. he's more afraid of what happens if they do work out, and then everyone is all involved in your business. we laughed about the nosey coworkers, and i told him that sarah had asked me if i would ever date him. he asked what my answer was, and i told him that i wasn't sure if it would ever go anywhere, because we are SOOO different. i'm very laid back, and he's a history teacher.. very responsible, and kind of anal. i also told him that i've definitely considered it, and had often wondered what a relationship between the two of us would be like. i told him that i'm not really a "dating" kind of girl.. i usually go from one relationship to the next, and that i don't have the patience to play the field. he said that he could tell, and that he loves being in a relationship as well... told me that he has this big house, and that it should be more than a house.. it should be a home, and homes are made for families, and beds are big because they are supposed to sleep more that one person, and all this crap. he said that he's single for the first time in 10 years, and he feels like he should go out and have fun, but that's hard because he keeps finding himself around this woman that only makes him think of being with her and only her. and then he leaned in and bumped my arm with his shoulder. i blushed, and giggled. and he grinned from ear to ear. i told him that when i got home, i was going to track him down on match, and send him the letter that he should have sent me.. he said that he might just have to respond.. and that maybe we could talk about how we are going to go out and spend the money that he just got for his birthday. (he turned 30 last week)
soooo what did i do when i got home from work on friday?? i ran to the computer, found him and sent him an email. now, i sort of chickened out, especially because i hate saying the things you really want to say from behind a computer screen. so he didn't get a super duper "come date me" kind of email.. it was just a "hi, how are you? hope you have a good weekend, i'll be thinking about you" kind of thing.. annnnnnnnd he didn't respond. part of me wants to send him another, and actually say the things that i chickened out of saying in the first place, and see if that sparks a response. another part thinks that i should just let it go, and wait to see him when i go back to work next week. (i'm off this week, because the fam. is away, and i'm watching all the little kids)
i hate being like this... i'm obsessing, and driving myself nuts. it's been almost 7 years since i've done anything like this, and i don't know how to act, or what to do with myself!!! help me, help me, help me!
i, just like purljamber, have a **"Cute But Unfortunately Married Coworker"**.. or atleast i did until he stopped wearing his wedding ring a few months ago. i never asked what happened, because he never volunteered the info, but found out in february that he and his wife got divorced. apparently, they just grew apart, didn't have any common interests, she fell out of love, and moved out of the house. so **CBUMC and i were always flirty, but upon his newfound singlehood, the flirting has become INTENSE.
last week, we covered cafeteria duty together. usually, we take that 45 minutes or so to really get to know each other, and flirt a whole lot. we've done this several times now, and can recite each others life history. on friday, there was a lot of giggling and arm touching, and then he blurted out that he had discovered me on match.com. now, i registered for match months ago, but never really got into the online dating thing. i've always been one to just "let things happen" in regards to my love life, and going out to pursue a relationship seemed too much work for me.
i asked him why he didn't say something before, and the conversation went something like this... he said that he thought of sending me a message on there, but wasn't sure how i'd respond. he said that he had thought about the two of us dating for awhile, but thinks that dating someone you work with can be tricky not because of the possibility of things not working out.. he's more afraid of what happens if they do work out, and then everyone is all involved in your business. we laughed about the nosey coworkers, and i told him that sarah had asked me if i would ever date him. he asked what my answer was, and i told him that i wasn't sure if it would ever go anywhere, because we are SOOO different. i'm very laid back, and he's a history teacher.. very responsible, and kind of anal. i also told him that i've definitely considered it, and had often wondered what a relationship between the two of us would be like. i told him that i'm not really a "dating" kind of girl.. i usually go from one relationship to the next, and that i don't have the patience to play the field. he said that he could tell, and that he loves being in a relationship as well... told me that he has this big house, and that it should be more than a house.. it should be a home, and homes are made for families, and beds are big because they are supposed to sleep more that one person, and all this crap. he said that he's single for the first time in 10 years, and he feels like he should go out and have fun, but that's hard because he keeps finding himself around this woman that only makes him think of being with her and only her. and then he leaned in and bumped my arm with his shoulder. i blushed, and giggled. and he grinned from ear to ear. i told him that when i got home, i was going to track him down on match, and send him the letter that he should have sent me.. he said that he might just have to respond.. and that maybe we could talk about how we are going to go out and spend the money that he just got for his birthday. (he turned 30 last week)
soooo what did i do when i got home from work on friday?? i ran to the computer, found him and sent him an email. now, i sort of chickened out, especially because i hate saying the things you really want to say from behind a computer screen. so he didn't get a super duper "come date me" kind of email.. it was just a "hi, how are you? hope you have a good weekend, i'll be thinking about you" kind of thing.. annnnnnnnd he didn't respond. part of me wants to send him another, and actually say the things that i chickened out of saying in the first place, and see if that sparks a response. another part thinks that i should just let it go, and wait to see him when i go back to work next week. (i'm off this week, because the fam. is away, and i'm watching all the little kids)
i hate being like this... i'm obsessing, and driving myself nuts. it's been almost 7 years since i've done anything like this, and i don't know how to act, or what to do with myself!!! help me, help me, help me!