Change is Progress.
I have to take a look at my life and how I barely recognize the person I am today, versus the person I once was 2-3 years ago. This change was slow and creeping, and allow me to acclimatize to it like a frog in slowly boiling water. Yet, unlike the frog about to be boiled alive, this change is closer to that of a caterpillar turning into a butterfly. I am becoming a truer version of who I want to be with each year. Credit is due: If Jonathan wasn't in my life I don't know where I'd be right now. I can genuinely say that. If you're reading this babes, I wuv you. Wuv you lots! ^_^
Yes, I've changed a lot during the past 2 years, and, yes, I can barely identify with who I once was: a desperately lonely young woman who wanted to fit in and did whatever she needed to do to do so. Interestingly enough, although I can still enjoy music that I used to listen to in the past, I no longer have a deep emotional connection to it. It no longer speaks to me the way it once did. It probably has something to do with the fact that I used to listen to a lot of emotional/sad music.
Surprise! I'm ... happy. :D I mean, I'm not going to stop listening to awesome music, but seriously, I can't listen to The Microphones' "The Moon" with the same emotional catharsis that I once used to. It's still good, I'm just no longer feel the same way as I did before when I hear it - which is good - right? XD
I've got some work to do, but, I'm closer to who I want to be and no one's going to get in my way. From here on out, it's all comin' up Carolina!
Oh, awesome news, I actually received $1000+ in government grants! But, of course, now I have an awesome 13k loan to repay to OSAP. Compared to my cousin in the States, she payed 40 GRAND (!!!) for ONE SEMESTER of homeopathic-doctor school. OH, and I got into all of my classes necessary to graduate next semester :D!! I'm so excited to graduate next semester!
Yes, I've changed a lot during the past 2 years, and, yes, I can barely identify with who I once was: a desperately lonely young woman who wanted to fit in and did whatever she needed to do to do so. Interestingly enough, although I can still enjoy music that I used to listen to in the past, I no longer have a deep emotional connection to it. It no longer speaks to me the way it once did. It probably has something to do with the fact that I used to listen to a lot of emotional/sad music.
Surprise! I'm ... happy. :D I mean, I'm not going to stop listening to awesome music, but seriously, I can't listen to The Microphones' "The Moon" with the same emotional catharsis that I once used to. It's still good, I'm just no longer feel the same way as I did before when I hear it - which is good - right? XD
I've got some work to do, but, I'm closer to who I want to be and no one's going to get in my way. From here on out, it's all comin' up Carolina!
Oh, awesome news, I actually received $1000+ in government grants! But, of course, now I have an awesome 13k loan to repay to OSAP. Compared to my cousin in the States, she payed 40 GRAND (!!!) for ONE SEMESTER of homeopathic-doctor school. OH, and I got into all of my classes necessary to graduate next semester :D!! I'm so excited to graduate next semester!