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grand gestures. ive had this thought before about grand gestures of love. I waited, like a lot of girls, i think, for that grand gesture of love from a guy. i put in all the effort my body mind and soul could possibily muster up. and then not only did that gesture never come, but any possibilty of it was literally just swept away. now all i can think of is... where is my grand gesture of love?
i have to constantly remind myself that i can provide that to myself by the things i chose to do or chose not to do with my life. i can give myself my own grand gestures of love every day, every month, all year long.
i start with trying to remain in the positive as much as possible and constanty trying to remind myself that i can control my life and how situations play out. this is not a false sense of control, like that some how i can play god and control exactly what happens. this is realistic idiation. I can take deep breaths, i can find the good, i can learn to smile a bit more every day in every situation.
hopefully this positivity will lead to me pushing to make positive choices for my life. choices that will fulfill me in different ways. career choices, choices in what i do for enjoyment, choosing friends. i hope i will learn to find some balance between loving myself, and allowing someone to someday love me again.
i have to constantly remind myself that i can provide that to myself by the things i chose to do or chose not to do with my life. i can give myself my own grand gestures of love every day, every month, all year long.
i start with trying to remain in the positive as much as possible and constanty trying to remind myself that i can control my life and how situations play out. this is not a false sense of control, like that some how i can play god and control exactly what happens. this is realistic idiation. I can take deep breaths, i can find the good, i can learn to smile a bit more every day in every situation.
hopefully this positivity will lead to me pushing to make positive choices for my life. choices that will fulfill me in different ways. career choices, choices in what i do for enjoyment, choosing friends. i hope i will learn to find some balance between loving myself, and allowing someone to someday love me again.