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[wolfedman]

I turn back towards Willow on hearing her speak. I want to speak, but can't find my voice so walk back across to the bed and hug her letting her know that I want to stay with her. I know that she'll never be the same after what Angelus did to her, but she's still Willow

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[eternally_ozs]

"I want to be happy again"

I whisper not sure what else to say. What I wanted more than anything is to be me again, but me doesn't exist anymore, so where does that leave us?

[wolfedman]

"You will be." I reply, hoping that she believes me.

"I don't know what I'd do without you Willow."

[eternally_ozs]

I wanted to say, you may have to learn...but that would only make things worse, so I just laid there.

After what seemed like an eternity of silence I finally spoke, still quiet.

"I should be doing something, not just laying here"

[wolfedman]

"Well, lets do something then." I tell her, wanting her not to let her mind concentrate on Angelus.

"You mentioned something about homework earlier?"

[eternally_ozs]

I turn and look at him.

"thing is I don't want to..."

I said softly

"I could try, but I don't know..."

[wolfedman]

"You should try doing something." I reply. "Especially if you don't just want to lie here."

I look at her, worried. She seems so restless, not wanting to just be here and relax, but not knowing what she wants.

[eternally_ozs]

"The problem is I do just want to lay here, but I know I shouldn't. The part of me that says that I should be studying is kicking in, but I just don't want to."

I said softly, I can't believe I was saying this much...I hate the sound of my voice now, the sound of me..its odd, I was starting to hate everything about me, and I don't know why.

[wolfedman]

"It's okay to just want to lie here." I assure her. "You've been through a lot so if you just want to lie here, then lie here."

[eternally_ozs]

"But thats not what I am supposed to do, I am supposed to be doing things like homework, or research, or hacking into something, or helping Giles, but instead I lay here like a useless waste."

I said softly. I really felt like I was useless at the moment.

[wolfedman]

"It is supposed to be what you're doing Willow. You were attacked, you should be resting." I tell her.

"And you're not useless, everybody knows you're going to have to take some time for yourself."

[eternally_ozs]

"But this isn't what I do...I ignore what I want and help others, I research till all hours and go to class and do my homework and sometimes others that Snyder guilts me into doing, and most of the time Buffy's and..well I don't just lay around"

I said softly but with some urgency.

[wolfedman]

"You'd be helping me by just lieing here." I tell her. "It'd mean I wasn't worrying as much."

I kiss her gently on the forehead, hoping that she takes some comfort in it and stops trying to rush herself into getting back to some sort of normality.

[eternally_ozs]

"I would?"

I ask softly, too weak to really fight it.

"Ok"

I whisper.

[wolfedman]

"You would." I reply, smiling.

I hope she settles soon, I hate seeing her this distressed but also realise it's going to take time.

[eternally_ozs]

I relax in his arms. I hated the way I was feeling, but it would go away soon..right?

"Oz, I'm sorry"

[wolfedman]

"You've got nothing to be sorry for Willow." I say, wanting her to find some sort of peace, to find the quiet.