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Is there a problem when you finally realize, 35 days before you graduate, how much somebodys friendship means to you? Cause thats what happened. Today, it hit me, the friendship I have with him means so much to me, and we haven't even been close lately. Its shocking and scary. The realization of not being in school with these people after 12 years, I guess it kind of hurts. Thankfully none of my best friends are going away to college. But he is. I don't know what to say or feel. Something wonderful has just happened to him and I am so happy for him, he completely deserves it. How do you express your happiness thou to someone you've barely talked to? He was how much he means to me, but I can't. I don't know how. I told him today to expect a letter at graduation or before he leaves for school. I don't even know. Senior year has just been a big stir of emotions. Prom is a month away and I'm not even sure who I'm taking anymore. I want Danny to be there more then anyone but I just don't think its possible. My friends are my world. Next month, eveything changes. He was one of my best friends, for a long time. He was there thru alot of shit. I want to hug him, tell him though, everything changes. I want to get out of high school so bad but at the same time, I'm dreading what I'm going to do with my life. My life is just a mess. All this emotion today is because I realized his friendship means the world to me. I don't even know. =/
Please don't ask who is he. Chances are, if you go to my school, I won't tell you. I don't want this getting back to him.