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It's been a while since i've had time to post here. Since the dissolution of the Fortress I've only had a few minutes with the interwebs at a time. I haven't had internet in my home since I moved to Eugene but, between school and friends I was still always on. Over the last few months I've made a more conscious effort to reduce my internet exposure. It's sort of frustrating; so much happens in the virtual realm these days. On the other hand it's been very relaxing. Almost everything I see or encounter exists in real space. I can touch it, or physically go back to it at any time. I think it is very strange that this is something a person could be missing in life.
But...back to the not-so-regularly scheduled blogging:
I mentioned that the Fortress is gone. I thought I would miss it more. I find the things I miss about it are things that I've been missing for a while. The house, the people, the feelings changed after that first year. I hadn't thought about it for a while except that more recently the remainder of the Fortress(Sam, Neil, and Brodie) and I have been looking for a house. They don't want a repeat of the Fortress. So, since it's been dead a while...I guess I'm done writing about it. At least for now. I will miss making posts from the corner of Forever and Everything.
I no longer work at McFarland. A little over two weeks ago Bones and I were offered layoffs because we're headed back to school and they were going to have to lay off two people anyway. This is what they told us, anyway. It's great! I didn't have to quit. I didn't get fired. So...my resume' is fine and I'll be able to draw unemployment until i begin school. Or maybe some while I'm in school? I don't know yet and everyone has a different idea about what changes have occurred under recent legislation.
I've been intoxicated with free time and lack of responsibility for 2 weeks. I'm in Portland right now because the day before yesterday I happened to catch a ride with Steve and his friends going to the Phish show in the Gorge. I was able to get up here and meet up with Maddi and John for Maddi's 21st birthday. I'm very glad to be visiting them again. I met John's dad, Nick Storie. He's a character. I love interesting people like that. His house is quirky and colorful, yesterday he bought us breakfast.
We're headed to Puget Sound today to go camping. We're meeting up with some old friends. It will be interesting. They didn't bother to come hang out with us in Jake's studio. It was strange. Especially considering how amazing and totally ridiculous that warehouse is. It's one of my new favorite places; filled with so much art and random bits of awesome that I'm sure in the 4 or 5 hours we spent there that I saw only half.
I got to chat with Amber for a minute before leaving. I am very glad for that. Since I met her I'm sure I've spent more time examining and re-examining and trying to understand our relationship and what she means in my life than I've spent thinking on most other things. Maybe that's not quite true, but if an exaggeration, it is only a slight one. In any case I've decided I won't be figuring it out any time soon. Well, that's not a new decision. But...once realized, a thing (or I suppose a better word would be an idea or notion)may take a while to actually settle in. I make the mistake of assuming that things I've realized, conclusions I've drawn, will become part of my fabric and decisions much sooner than they really do. It may have been this sort of mistake that led us to renew a romantic relationship. Out of all of the things I could learn from this situation, I am only confident in one just yet: It was too soon.
I don't think I'll be looking for housing with the fortress kids. It's gotten a bit late in the summer and Ariel has given her notice. It would be prudent for me to begin looking for a new room mate.
I have a lot more to say...but not right now.
But...back to the not-so-regularly scheduled blogging:
I mentioned that the Fortress is gone. I thought I would miss it more. I find the things I miss about it are things that I've been missing for a while. The house, the people, the feelings changed after that first year. I hadn't thought about it for a while except that more recently the remainder of the Fortress(Sam, Neil, and Brodie) and I have been looking for a house. They don't want a repeat of the Fortress. So, since it's been dead a while...I guess I'm done writing about it. At least for now. I will miss making posts from the corner of Forever and Everything.
I no longer work at McFarland. A little over two weeks ago Bones and I were offered layoffs because we're headed back to school and they were going to have to lay off two people anyway. This is what they told us, anyway. It's great! I didn't have to quit. I didn't get fired. So...my resume' is fine and I'll be able to draw unemployment until i begin school. Or maybe some while I'm in school? I don't know yet and everyone has a different idea about what changes have occurred under recent legislation.
I've been intoxicated with free time and lack of responsibility for 2 weeks. I'm in Portland right now because the day before yesterday I happened to catch a ride with Steve and his friends going to the Phish show in the Gorge. I was able to get up here and meet up with Maddi and John for Maddi's 21st birthday. I'm very glad to be visiting them again. I met John's dad, Nick Storie. He's a character. I love interesting people like that. His house is quirky and colorful, yesterday he bought us breakfast.
We're headed to Puget Sound today to go camping. We're meeting up with some old friends. It will be interesting. They didn't bother to come hang out with us in Jake's studio. It was strange. Especially considering how amazing and totally ridiculous that warehouse is. It's one of my new favorite places; filled with so much art and random bits of awesome that I'm sure in the 4 or 5 hours we spent there that I saw only half.
I got to chat with Amber for a minute before leaving. I am very glad for that. Since I met her I'm sure I've spent more time examining and re-examining and trying to understand our relationship and what she means in my life than I've spent thinking on most other things. Maybe that's not quite true, but if an exaggeration, it is only a slight one. In any case I've decided I won't be figuring it out any time soon. Well, that's not a new decision. But...once realized, a thing (or I suppose a better word would be an idea or notion)may take a while to actually settle in. I make the mistake of assuming that things I've realized, conclusions I've drawn, will become part of my fabric and decisions much sooner than they really do. It may have been this sort of mistake that led us to renew a romantic relationship. Out of all of the things I could learn from this situation, I am only confident in one just yet: It was too soon.
I don't think I'll be looking for housing with the fortress kids. It's gotten a bit late in the summer and Ariel has given her notice. It would be prudent for me to begin looking for a new room mate.
I have a lot more to say...but not right now.