this worked pretty well on my last journal. let's try again.

[_letsrun]

to everyone who reads this:

leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. say anything. tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. tell me abut your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. tell me about your opinions. on me, on the world, on the love of your life, on your cat.
tell.me.

Comments

[anonymous]

I lost my best friend right at the beginning of the school year... She found out I was gay and then told her parents that I was dating this girl and they freaked out and told my parents. I totally wasn't really to come out to my parents, so I lied to them and told them that I was just confused. She made my parents hate me for a while. My grandmother still questions me regularly about my sexuality. My ex-bestfiend made my life a living hell for several months until I finally just had to stop trying to make things better between us.
You would think I'd be over her, right? well, I'm not.
It breaks my heart to think about the fact that she's changed into a different person, and I'll never get my old best friend back. I miss the girl I used to know, and I hate the person that she became. I'm totally mixed up about it. I love her, but I hate her. I obsess, even though that she couldn't care less about me anymore and she's said this. I read her journal. I care if she talks about me. I cry when I see a picture of her. I cried for about a half an hour in front of my girlfriend, because I saw a videotape of us in her room, trying to write a song. I just can't seem to get over it even though I know that if she ever did come around, I wouldn't be able to be her friend again. Not after what she put me through.
I act like I'm fine in front of my family and my girlfriend and my friends, but I'm still torn up over the whole thing.
<3

[anonymous]

oh yeah... and that should be 'ready' rather than 'really.'