wingin out
my body aches in a way that suggests the complicated spiderweb of sinew and muscle within me has given up. like i've graduated to old age in the course of days. i'm gone again, but i still can't escape my brain.
new york city, albuquerque, missoula, montreal, new orleans, los angeles, hawaii, dublin. i want to be everywhere and nowhere all at once. i want to live and let live. let me be and i will come around in time, i promise. i will try to do it right this time. i want to know whether i am hopeful and excited or apathetic and empty. whether i am enraged or forgiving. whether i've lost all of my intelligence or it is still hiding somewhere with in me. sensitive or hard as a rock. wasting my life or experiencing it. crazy or just convinced i am. a lost cause.
the conflict in my head is almost unbearable, and i want to start over. out with the old, in with the new. this life has gotten to be too much. i am houdini, the showy escape artist and i hope you will not see me again.
new york city, albuquerque, missoula, montreal, new orleans, los angeles, hawaii, dublin. i want to be everywhere and nowhere all at once. i want to live and let live. let me be and i will come around in time, i promise. i will try to do it right this time. i want to know whether i am hopeful and excited or apathetic and empty. whether i am enraged or forgiving. whether i've lost all of my intelligence or it is still hiding somewhere with in me. sensitive or hard as a rock. wasting my life or experiencing it. crazy or just convinced i am. a lost cause.
the conflict in my head is almost unbearable, and i want to start over. out with the old, in with the new. this life has gotten to be too much. i am houdini, the showy escape artist and i hope you will not see me again.