again.
well.. since ive stopped lj-ing.. ive been writing in my diary a LOT. lots of things are going on around here. i did something that im so strongly against that i cant even believe i let it happen, but i did and now i get to live with it. mom and tony are probably divorcing by may because of taxes and marriage problems. either that or theyre buying a house together and getting counciling. i highly doubt either one will happen because, as we all know, this is quite typical of them. nothing that they say ever really does happen. tony thinks moms having an affair though so maybe they will divorce. who knows. i almost just said 'who cares?'
i guess i would. just a little. shes still smoking.. and shes become pretty distant. but then again, im not so close or around much these days either. i feel like i barely even know my brother now because we never talk. i hate that. i havent talked to dad in a while either. i think im quittin the baskin robbins life and moving on here in a month or so because management is changing and i fucking hate the people taking over. they tried to get me written up for nothing. they can go suck some cocks.
brandon problems are gone for now.. but its pretty shitty because i wanted to have space so that i could spend time with friends, and for the last few days, it seems im friend-less. nobody will even talk to me now. erics mad at me, which really pretty much fuckin sucks. trent like dropped off the face of the earth, which i guess its better that way. joe doesnt talk to me much at all. i hung out with jeremy all day friday but since he lives in oakdale its not exactly easy to hang out with him. heather isnt really a friend much lately. who else? i think that just about covers my list of people. i cant ever just get what i want and be happy, and figuring this out the hard way sucked. i feel like ive been sick for weeks but i guess its only been about 5 days. maybe 6.
proms in three weeks. i dont even know if im going or not. if i am i guess i should get a dress, but i dont want to spend money right now if im gunna be quitting my job. blah. i need to sleep now because im feeling down. thats the answer to everything. just sleep it off. then when you wake up and still feel down, sigh and go back to sleep. fuck swimming- just keep sleeping.
i guess i would. just a little. shes still smoking.. and shes become pretty distant. but then again, im not so close or around much these days either. i feel like i barely even know my brother now because we never talk. i hate that. i havent talked to dad in a while either. i think im quittin the baskin robbins life and moving on here in a month or so because management is changing and i fucking hate the people taking over. they tried to get me written up for nothing. they can go suck some cocks.
brandon problems are gone for now.. but its pretty shitty because i wanted to have space so that i could spend time with friends, and for the last few days, it seems im friend-less. nobody will even talk to me now. erics mad at me, which really pretty much fuckin sucks. trent like dropped off the face of the earth, which i guess its better that way. joe doesnt talk to me much at all. i hung out with jeremy all day friday but since he lives in oakdale its not exactly easy to hang out with him. heather isnt really a friend much lately. who else? i think that just about covers my list of people. i cant ever just get what i want and be happy, and figuring this out the hard way sucked. i feel like ive been sick for weeks but i guess its only been about 5 days. maybe 6.
proms in three weeks. i dont even know if im going or not. if i am i guess i should get a dress, but i dont want to spend money right now if im gunna be quitting my job. blah. i need to sleep now because im feeling down. thats the answer to everything. just sleep it off. then when you wake up and still feel down, sigh and go back to sleep. fuck swimming- just keep sleeping.