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[_letsgodown_]

ive noticed something.. i keep getting into other peoples' lives or trying to care a lot about something rediculous because i dont want to have to think about me. thinking about me makes me feel depressed again. i stopped updating this thing because i took a break from getting things out i think. ugh i know this is stupid. i must be a hypochaundriac.. because i keep feeling like im slightly bi-polar. yes im stupid im not sorry. i still feel like it. i can never just stay happy.. i was happy for a while today, and then he leaves and it all stops. every single time. its more of dependence than bi-polarness i suppose.. i dont know. its so frustrating.

*sigh* and now ive lost interest in making this entry. god damnit.