a new year
A fresh start
i never imagined that this vacation would bring me to where i am right now
i havnt been this happy in years
2004 was the worst year of my life.. i am soo happy its finnally over
I seriously put myself through hell .. i had never been so fucked up.. and it took me a lot to finnally let go
-to finnally realize that i was losing myself-
the only thing i really hate .. is looking back at how nieve and stupid i was to set myself up for such a downfall
i also hate that i wasted real love... my first love...but most obviously people dont know what love is... i hate how it has become a high school relationship... you dont just throw that word around... it took me so long to finnally say it... but now i can see that it doesnt matter anymore... its called lying
but you know what...
fuck it!
its a new year and that means a new begining
**they say that the way you spend your new years is the way you spend therest of your year.. im hoping thats true.. this new year brought me into something i havnt felt in so long...
maybe someday ill be ready to give someone those words again... and mean it... and i think that thought isnt so scary anymore...
i just cant wait to feel like all this is over... and just forget
have you ever just wanted to forget?
and move on... and be okay with the past.. and ready to accept the future
i cant wait to start my year.. with you. im way past moved on. because im starting over.
yea i like the sound of that
happy new year everyone
leave me some love<3