where is my mind?
so i've realized that i am very bored. its not even july, and i find myself tearing my hair out, wandering aimlessly around the house, sitting on the computer for hours at a time, writing guitar songs that don't make sense (unless you're into the locust. yay!), staring at random objects and eating a lot.
speaking of the locust... its really silly, but it made me smile. the romulan really reminds me of someone i know.
i'm bored with clothes. nowadays, i hate everything i see. i hate the goths and their stupid expensive hot topics. i hate american eagle because its the same thing as hollister, just with an eagle rather than a seagull, and i hate hollister because they only sell little clothes, and i have to wear a large, and that doesn't make me feel good. i hate band t shirts because i love the bands and a t shirt doesn't do them justice. i hate sewing, so why even bother making my own clothes? whats a girl to do? i have no money if i even wanted to invest in some nice summery clothes.
yeah, i'm still wearing that same black hoodie.
i'm bored with myself. i have no [good] job, so i can't get ahead, i can't find a [good] job because i have no experience, and the job that i do have is only one weekend a year (no kiddin) and it blows goats. i'm losing all my creativity. i used to be a cool person, really. i had like, opinions and stuff. dude. i started drawing again just to prove to myself that i wasn't a total waste of space. i can draw facial features. who's throwing the party? also, i am really thinking seriously about making my own clothes. i just need a little inspiration, because really, i hate clothes. or maybe i should just start my own nudist colony. that would be easier.
i need a new hair style. i realized two days ago that my haircut is really frappy and i have no idea why i've kept it for so long. so the little shave in the back is going!! for so long i've wanted to shave my head, but i know mitch wouldn't like that so i'll hold back on that. but maybe, just maybe, i'll end up with a mohawk in the end. i saw one on a salon poster a while ago and have been in love ever since. actually, i've been in love since i first saw brody from the distillers. i remember when i was home alone how i'd break out the elmers glue and try and get a hawk goin. cmon, you did it too!!
hey there it is! isn't it cute?
finals are finally done yes yes yes. i love my mom, but she is really annoying sometimes. i think we're a lot alike. and thats why i didn't go for wings tonight.
i have to write a letter to my grandma, i guess she's really sick, um... i wish i knew her [kind of]. if i ever get married, i don't think i'll invite anyone on my dads side of the family to my wedding. isn't it sad that i can't even name all my dads brothers and sisters? i don't even know how many he has. anyway, so i need to be a good little girl and send pictures of me and stuff because they all hate us and won't come visit or write back, but it would be inconsiderate to not say hi every now and then.
hey, i'm having a party june 12, everyone is invited. the party will be to welcome the brand new show on vh1, I LOVE THE 90's. i sure hope they talk about pop quiz popcorn. oh! this summers song will be one from last year. either a.) the postal service - such great heights. or b.) pretty girls make graves - the getaway. or whatever else i want it to be. haha so there. umm. i never meant for this entry to be that long.
what i was trying to say is i'm broke so i couldn't go out for wings with josh, dani, marla, and kuzar, and me and josh never ever talk enough, and i never talk enough to anyone. someone unbored me. dr. previte was leaving today and he said bye sweetheart, make sure you email me. i'll miss him a whole bunch, but he'll enjoy his great new job at upj. i need to make my own clothes, and i'm only using livejournal for business purposes from now on. [read: commenting, and talkign about fear before.]
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