My Yearly Update
Another year. almost. Another set of new adventures. good and maybe not so good.
I'm finally in my last year of undergrad. Finally. It's been really hard sometimes and less hard other times.
I am getting a BSW. I'm going to be a social worker. Weird. I have a minor in Spanish and I have no idea what I'm going to do when I finish school. I am taking a year to figure out where to go for my MSW and to gain a little more experience. Although I'm not sure how all that will go. (Jamaica in March though! so excited)
Taking it one day at a time. or at least trying like hell not to worry so much about it. I worry too much, even when I'm worrying less than normal. Thank GOD for the people I have close to me. I can talk it out most of the time.
I haven't been writing. Not like I used to. Not like I should be. I got a little consumed.. or a lot. I've been spending too much time running. I run to work and school and a difficult internship. Good but crazy.
I tried to be in a relationship. I was happy. really happy. And I let myself get deeper into those emotions than I generally allow. I was scared, then I stopped being so scared, and then I got my heart broken. I wanted so badly for it to work. and it's taken me an entire year to realize that it wont/wouldn't have worked. Long distance is hard enough but to add all the stress of feelings that I am not used to or ready to handle along with everything else in my life was just plain stupid ridiculous. I don't know what I was thinking, or if in fact I was thinking at all.
I wish that I had more answers. I find myself asking questions all the time because I get lost and confused. I try my hardest to do the right thing and to be the kind of person I want to be. To like and love myself so that I can feel good at the end of each day. So that I can go to bed knowing that I am always living my life the way that I want to and being open to new things.
I think I lost my words for a while. but I'm finding them now. Some of them. I'll keep looking.
I'm finally in my last year of undergrad. Finally. It's been really hard sometimes and less hard other times.
I am getting a BSW. I'm going to be a social worker. Weird. I have a minor in Spanish and I have no idea what I'm going to do when I finish school. I am taking a year to figure out where to go for my MSW and to gain a little more experience. Although I'm not sure how all that will go. (Jamaica in March though! so excited)
Taking it one day at a time. or at least trying like hell not to worry so much about it. I worry too much, even when I'm worrying less than normal. Thank GOD for the people I have close to me. I can talk it out most of the time.
I haven't been writing. Not like I used to. Not like I should be. I got a little consumed.. or a lot. I've been spending too much time running. I run to work and school and a difficult internship. Good but crazy.
I tried to be in a relationship. I was happy. really happy. And I let myself get deeper into those emotions than I generally allow. I was scared, then I stopped being so scared, and then I got my heart broken. I wanted so badly for it to work. and it's taken me an entire year to realize that it wont/wouldn't have worked. Long distance is hard enough but to add all the stress of feelings that I am not used to or ready to handle along with everything else in my life was just plain stupid ridiculous. I don't know what I was thinking, or if in fact I was thinking at all.
I wish that I had more answers. I find myself asking questions all the time because I get lost and confused. I try my hardest to do the right thing and to be the kind of person I want to be. To like and love myself so that I can feel good at the end of each day. So that I can go to bed knowing that I am always living my life the way that I want to and being open to new things.
I think I lost my words for a while. but I'm finding them now. Some of them. I'll keep looking.