as fast as you can
finally it feels like everything is going back to the way it should be. nothing was totally out of place, but pieces of my life are being slipped in the empty slots where they belong. senior year hasn't been as fun as everybody makes it to be. i have enjoyed myself to some extent, that being the extent of only a few people that i hang around with, and that being only one person that i enjoy all the time, and that being chandler, but i love all of my friends, even the ones that i don't see anymore. amandas in my life let me be girly and harrison and i sat up looking at pictures of how things used to be, in beach pictures and ljk and christmas and animabots and bamboo forests and summer. and chandler in the hospital and luau sadness. and wal-mart and lying in the street. and living for eachother because that's what we do. and we're do the best we can in a small town, act like big city (kids in love) when the sun goes down. and we're all in love with eachother. and i'm in love. and the world is lovely. and more people should think that every so often and not be tied down with stress of work and school and college and parents and blah-tee-blah. hereby i am making a pact to remind myself to carpe diem and stay 18 forever and whatnot, i'm close enough, and hold onto all of these feelings because i know at least one of them that will last, and never grow up, and make the living room a live-ing room, and not let global warming affect my life, and recycle. and dance. but most of all i want to dance.