so maybe tomorrow i'll find my way home
leaving for ocean isle on saturday. surprisingly not as excited as people usually are. people make spring break out to be this big crazy event that we should be so pumped for, but i'm not. expectations are being shit faced and hooking up wiht random people. honestly, getting drunk does not seem appealing to me right now, and neither does smoking or anything else. and really, i'd rather not hook up with random people or anyone who wouldn't have some sort of meaning to me or give me butterflies.
so many crushes i have and so many could easily form to more than a crush, for me. i don't want to get hurt with any of them--most likely i'll stick to just being friends or whatever i am with these people now. these are the people though that matter a lot to me.
i hate that i don't have a lot of friends. yeah there are people that are my "friends" or what not but hardly any of these people could i come and burst my heart out to or cry to or feel comfortable with at any time or at any place. i thank god for chloe. and for not only her but many other people; you know who you are. thank you.
back to spring break. i am staying in a house, with many girls, many "friends" or acquaintances or people that are friends with my friends--whatever. girls. too many of them. spring break will be interesting.
geez.
so many crushes i have and so many could easily form to more than a crush, for me. i don't want to get hurt with any of them--most likely i'll stick to just being friends or whatever i am with these people now. these are the people though that matter a lot to me.
i hate that i don't have a lot of friends. yeah there are people that are my "friends" or what not but hardly any of these people could i come and burst my heart out to or cry to or feel comfortable with at any time or at any place. i thank god for chloe. and for not only her but many other people; you know who you are. thank you.
back to spring break. i am staying in a house, with many girls, many "friends" or acquaintances or people that are friends with my friends--whatever. girls. too many of them. spring break will be interesting.
geez.