"eyelid" is a funny word...
My sister graduated high school today. After the ceremony, she was so excited. She and Marissa drove me home and Kassy was honking her horn, blasting her music and just...the happiest I've ever seen her ever. Their happiness was contagious. I was so excited, too. I wanted to go out, have fun and be a freshly graduated high schooler. But, that didn't happen. For reasons unknown to me, I am still sitting in my house at 11:30-ish PM wondering what is going on and when things will happen. ...I don't think they ever will (on a small and large scale sense).
It was strange/good seeing so many people that I haven't seen in FOREVER at the graduation ceremony. I'm strangely nostalgic for this time last year. I wish I had something to celebrate like my sister does.
In other news, I am officially studying abroad my entire junior year. Yes, it's true. In Freiburg to be exact. I honestly already can't wait. Even though I still have my entire sophomore year to complete AND I haven't yet applied AND I know I'll miss Ann Arbor like mad...It'll be the best time of my life. Or, it had better be.
I've realized (even though I've really known this for a while) that I live too much in the future. I'm always planning for tomorrow or next week or next year and I'm constantly dreaming about when I'll be 21, or graduated, or married, etc. and I just get (obviously) a little too ahead of myself. I need to change this. I need to learn how to live in the moment and love what I'm currently doing. The problem is, I don't know how to do it, really. And usually when I do, it comes back to bite me in the ass. Hmmm.
Anyway, last Friday I calculated that if I read 3-4 chapters per day of Harry Potter, I'll have read all 6 books (again) in time for the 7th book to come out! ...I really am such a nerd sometimes all the time. I've finished the first book and now I'm into the 4th chapter on the second book. Right on schedule! Excellent!
History exam on Thursday! ...Need to study for that.
haha, ok, I'm done now.
It was strange/good seeing so many people that I haven't seen in FOREVER at the graduation ceremony. I'm strangely nostalgic for this time last year. I wish I had something to celebrate like my sister does.
In other news, I am officially studying abroad my entire junior year. Yes, it's true. In Freiburg to be exact. I honestly already can't wait. Even though I still have my entire sophomore year to complete AND I haven't yet applied AND I know I'll miss Ann Arbor like mad...It'll be the best time of my life. Or, it had better be.
I've realized (even though I've really known this for a while) that I live too much in the future. I'm always planning for tomorrow or next week or next year and I'm constantly dreaming about when I'll be 21, or graduated, or married, etc. and I just get (obviously) a little too ahead of myself. I need to change this. I need to learn how to live in the moment and love what I'm currently doing. The problem is, I don't know how to do it, really. And usually when I do, it comes back to bite me in the ass. Hmmm.
Anyway, last Friday I calculated that if I read 3-4 chapters per day of Harry Potter, I'll have read all 6 books (again) in time for the 7th book to come out! ...I really am such a nerd sometimes all the time. I've finished the first book and now I'm into the 4th chapter on the second book. Right on schedule! Excellent!
History exam on Thursday! ...Need to study for that.
haha, ok, I'm done now.