Lies
So I've been "dating" this guy named Rich for almost a year. I call it "dating" because I met the man on the internet. I know, I know. How geeky of me, but eh. I'm lonely. Anywho, he and I have been talking since last April. And recently, over the last few months, I think I lost that loving feeling. I've been anoyed with him and just thinking he isn't good enough for me. Yes, I know. How rather bitchy of me. But usually I have a really good reason or feeling why I had been doing that. I guess my womenly intuitions were right this time around...
So it's been about a month since I last talked to him. How weird that I missed him, huh? I did. I missed him. He made such a big deal about Valentine's Day and come to found out that he didn't even call me that day like he said he would. I've been bitching and moaning on my website that he's been a jerk and whatnot, knowing full well that he was going to read it. I get a private messege from him saying that I need to call him because he needed to get some things off his chest. So I called him yesterday and he basically told me the truth:
First, that his little wrestling business was smaller than I anticipated. That his other jobs he was doing "for a friend" were actually his main job. And that he has been unemployed for the last two months and that's hes just been lying to me. I know, I know.
On the phone I couldn't say "well, I don't date losers so fuck you". I'm not that mean. But what the hell am I suppose to do? For the last year he's been lying to me. I know he just wanted to impress me, but damn! The truth impresses me much more. That shows real character.
Things have changed. We no longer say "I love you". Maybe he too has lost the loving feeling. But I think that us having this space in which we aren't talking is good. In my case, distance does make the heart grow fonder. The less contact I have with someone is the more I am gonna miss them. And then, the reunion is much better. But that's just me. That's the way I work.
I just needed to get this out. On my site I can't really write what I want because people read it. Basically people I don't want knowing, ie my boyfriend. But le sigh, that's the way love goes. I'm gonna go fry some more.
So it's been about a month since I last talked to him. How weird that I missed him, huh? I did. I missed him. He made such a big deal about Valentine's Day and come to found out that he didn't even call me that day like he said he would. I've been bitching and moaning on my website that he's been a jerk and whatnot, knowing full well that he was going to read it. I get a private messege from him saying that I need to call him because he needed to get some things off his chest. So I called him yesterday and he basically told me the truth:
First, that his little wrestling business was smaller than I anticipated. That his other jobs he was doing "for a friend" were actually his main job. And that he has been unemployed for the last two months and that's hes just been lying to me. I know, I know.
On the phone I couldn't say "well, I don't date losers so fuck you". I'm not that mean. But what the hell am I suppose to do? For the last year he's been lying to me. I know he just wanted to impress me, but damn! The truth impresses me much more. That shows real character.
Things have changed. We no longer say "I love you". Maybe he too has lost the loving feeling. But I think that us having this space in which we aren't talking is good. In my case, distance does make the heart grow fonder. The less contact I have with someone is the more I am gonna miss them. And then, the reunion is much better. But that's just me. That's the way I work.
I just needed to get this out. On my site I can't really write what I want because people read it. Basically people I don't want knowing, ie my boyfriend. But le sigh, that's the way love goes. I'm gonna go fry some more.