i can't stop thinking
I deleted my last entry because I deleted my last entry.
I said some things off impulse that sounded harsher than
they should have. Janie - I honestly don't hate you at all.
It kills me because I'm sure that you think that. I was just
hurt and upset about it, and confused on why and what had
happend for you to say it. Which I still am, but I really
want to talk to you about it. I want to figure out
why you really said it and those things. I don't want
anyone else getting involved in this but you and I
because it's between you and I only.
Apart from the latest drama in my group of friends
that is completely uneeded and most unwanted..
I got a new camera! I've decided that I am fine
with it, and that I am going to keep it. Now everytime
I have little excursions with my friends, I can take
pictures for a good and interesting update.
My weekend was up and down I guess you could say.
I've been writing alot lately.. more than usual I mean.
I've also been really angry lately too and I get upset
so easily. Sorry if I have to you, I don't know what's up.
I'm recognizing behaiviors from differen't people, and
starting to understand more things. Some make me happy,
some make me completely disgusted.
It's something I can't do anything about though.
I miss our friendship. Even if it can't be another way,
I valued our connection a lot. Oh niggah.
I'm stuck in a state of mind right now that
I can't really begin to explain. There are so many thoughts
that are trying to become actions at once and it's
starting to drive me insane. It's honestly overwhelming.
I hate the english problem that I am forced to take
charge of. It sucks and should burn. Sweeet and awesome.
♥