every possible mistake.
it's amazing the mental state i was in when i first picked up everything and decided to move here. part of me hates to admit it, but in all honesty, maybe it wasn't the wisest decision i've made.
when i look back and think of what i gave up, i realize i've compromised a whole lot of who i was/am. i suppose a huge chunk of that is still in me but i refuse to revisit it. somehow things seem 'easier' when it's left alone.
the more i think about my life now, the more i'm beginning to accept that when my time of need comes, there will be NO ONE there in my corner. when push comes to shove, it's me and ONLY ME. because let's face it, relying on someone else creates disappointments, not to mention the endless feeling of frustration.
so as ann used to say, 'fuck it all.'
it's so not even worth it.
so to you, my dear 'lover', we may sleep on the same bed and live in the same house, but make no mistake - you CHOSE to end it and be 'on your own' and you know what? so be it.
when i look back and think of what i gave up, i realize i've compromised a whole lot of who i was/am. i suppose a huge chunk of that is still in me but i refuse to revisit it. somehow things seem 'easier' when it's left alone.
the more i think about my life now, the more i'm beginning to accept that when my time of need comes, there will be NO ONE there in my corner. when push comes to shove, it's me and ONLY ME. because let's face it, relying on someone else creates disappointments, not to mention the endless feeling of frustration.
so as ann used to say, 'fuck it all.'
it's so not even worth it.
so to you, my dear 'lover', we may sleep on the same bed and live in the same house, but make no mistake - you CHOSE to end it and be 'on your own' and you know what? so be it.