my almost lover.
i've been a bit obsessed with skincare lately. now that i've figured out that proactiv doesn't really work as well as i would've wanted, i'm on the lookout for alternatives. i'm currently using the clinique system. it works, but they really don't have any anti-acne properties in them, except for the smidge of witch hazel in their toner. needless to say, when i'm hormonal, my breakouts take a while to heal (i hate that!) and clinique doesn't help speed it up, either.
anyway, i ran into a few posts online regarding an aspirin mask. i think i might just try it. it's.. interesting and with the cheap price tag, what have i got to lose?
supposedly mineral make up helps heal the skin too, so i think i'll be applying mine daily for a week and see if that makes a difference.
by no means is my acne bad. i'm just frustrated and quite fed up that it's still a part of 'who i am'. this all started when i hit puberty and now that i'm 24, i think it's about damn time it stopped. then again, bad skin does run in the family. i've been lucky not to get large cysts. still, it's an inconvenience and sometimes painful. i think i've reached a point where i've learned to 'ignore' them on my face. scars are constant reminders though.
enough about skin.
it's 11.30 on a sunday night and i'm still up writing. it's not that i have something particularly interesting to say - more of an anxious itch i'm trying to scratch.
we went to dinner with the parents saturday night. talked about the prospective job and all. heard the assistant manager really likes me so i'm guessing she'll be pulling for me to get hired. with the discount, the gracious benefits package, and hell, the opportunity to go out there and do my thing (getting paid well, might i add), i'm losing my head.
my boss has become unbearable (or maybe the thought of him?). at one point, i actually enjoyed what i did. being a personal assistant and all, i had access to that side people didn't normally see. it was kinda cool to see life at a different, much richer angle. but with emma leaving and with nancy talking about 'keeping her eye out' for other opportunities, i'm feeling the need to hurry up and resign. 'course, i shouldn't react until i have a definite answer from the company.
which brings me to my next point. connie mentioned she was expecting to hear from sylvia this monday. but seeing as how she is off this monday, she mentioned she'd be in contact with me by tuesday or wednesday (she specifically said 'mid week'). i'm becoming anxious and restless.
which is why i'm writing.
in so many words, i don't think i can get to the core of how i feel about my current 'situation'. i'm still deeply upset that emma has decided to resign. then again, that's just my selfish side coming out. she was an awesome coworker and will be surely missed.
i suppose, more than anything, what's upsetting me the most is how things ended between her and him. after a 2 year working relationship, as well as a 'somewhat-family' outlook, i'm shocked and appalled at what happened and what was said. in the face of real hardship, she was blatantly ignored and refused help.
now, in the face of a possible impending lawsuit which involves fraud, of all things, she has decided to leave. and good for her, i might add.
i'm... thinking about possibly quitting. while it's customary to give 2 weeks' notice, i'm not sure i can stand being in that office for more than a day, given the fact that i'm supposed to be taking emma's place in the office, across from josh. yes, josh.
i should go to bed. all this thinking can't be good for my system.
anyway, i ran into a few posts online regarding an aspirin mask. i think i might just try it. it's.. interesting and with the cheap price tag, what have i got to lose?
supposedly mineral make up helps heal the skin too, so i think i'll be applying mine daily for a week and see if that makes a difference.
by no means is my acne bad. i'm just frustrated and quite fed up that it's still a part of 'who i am'. this all started when i hit puberty and now that i'm 24, i think it's about damn time it stopped. then again, bad skin does run in the family. i've been lucky not to get large cysts. still, it's an inconvenience and sometimes painful. i think i've reached a point where i've learned to 'ignore' them on my face. scars are constant reminders though.
enough about skin.
it's 11.30 on a sunday night and i'm still up writing. it's not that i have something particularly interesting to say - more of an anxious itch i'm trying to scratch.
we went to dinner with the parents saturday night. talked about the prospective job and all. heard the assistant manager really likes me so i'm guessing she'll be pulling for me to get hired. with the discount, the gracious benefits package, and hell, the opportunity to go out there and do my thing (getting paid well, might i add), i'm losing my head.
my boss has become unbearable (or maybe the thought of him?). at one point, i actually enjoyed what i did. being a personal assistant and all, i had access to that side people didn't normally see. it was kinda cool to see life at a different, much richer angle. but with emma leaving and with nancy talking about 'keeping her eye out' for other opportunities, i'm feeling the need to hurry up and resign. 'course, i shouldn't react until i have a definite answer from the company.
which brings me to my next point. connie mentioned she was expecting to hear from sylvia this monday. but seeing as how she is off this monday, she mentioned she'd be in contact with me by tuesday or wednesday (she specifically said 'mid week'). i'm becoming anxious and restless.
which is why i'm writing.
in so many words, i don't think i can get to the core of how i feel about my current 'situation'. i'm still deeply upset that emma has decided to resign. then again, that's just my selfish side coming out. she was an awesome coworker and will be surely missed.
i suppose, more than anything, what's upsetting me the most is how things ended between her and him. after a 2 year working relationship, as well as a 'somewhat-family' outlook, i'm shocked and appalled at what happened and what was said. in the face of real hardship, she was blatantly ignored and refused help.
now, in the face of a possible impending lawsuit which involves fraud, of all things, she has decided to leave. and good for her, i might add.
i'm... thinking about possibly quitting. while it's customary to give 2 weeks' notice, i'm not sure i can stand being in that office for more than a day, given the fact that i'm supposed to be taking emma's place in the office, across from josh. yes, josh.
i should go to bed. all this thinking can't be good for my system.