fucked up..
Heyy =/
wednesday * I woke up at around 12:15 lol. cause i was up for alongg time the night before. Hmm me and my mom went tanning and i wore a halter top cause it was madd hott out. Gary's been home.. he came back after like a month cause of his work.. well it's probably been like 2 weeks but it feels like a month lol. So me and my mom left and ate at the chineese place. We were just talking about how everyone changes.. it was real sad lol. My mom was talking to me a few days before that to and was like " amanda you know've you've been drunk, tried weed & thought about having sex with people" I was like what the hell, what makes you think that? lol. But i guess most of it's true but im a fucking virgin. Oh well lol. yepp so we went tanning and then went back home. I got ready to go with my dad. He picked me up and i was gonna apply for Bella Vista but fucking you gotta be like 18 or over to serve alchohal.. i'm like why the hell can't i serve it?! i'm not gonna be drinking it! lol. Haha whatever.. so me and my dad ate there, then we went to the mall. My dad was in sucha good mood.. i miss how happy he used to be back then & stuff. But we had fun. I bought three shirts. From Forever 21 i got this plain bright green shirt and from Weathervane i got 2 shirts that say stuff on them.. but i have to return the one that says ' i love attention ' cause its madd short on me & stupid me didn't try it on. We left.. and i went home. I got into a RAGEiNG fight with my mom because she wouldn't let me in the car with Monika which is getting fuckin rediculous because she lets me in the car with Gary and he speeds like madddd. I practically lost my goddamn voice i was so mad. lol but yeah the rest of the night i was on the phone with Jessica & Rachel. Me and Rachel were acting really retarded lol.
0O0OH O0O0H! MY SONG.. ok here goes * oh the weather outside is hot n shitty.. and im burnt to a crisp like p.diddy and since theres no place to go.. holla at holla at a hoeee *
HAHA people liked my song =).. as u can see i have alot of time on my hands.. but Rachel and Annie enjoyed it hahaha.
Thursday * wellllll today i slept ALOT.. me and Lindsay had plans to go to her house and like walk to River Dale Diner lol. but she had work so i just went to walmart w/ my mom.. it was soo boring & i wanted to leave.. we planned to go tanning but we didn't. Umm my sessions are up April 27th for tanning.. its gonna suck cause i have no damn patience to lay in the sun! lol.
- Blahh also today me and my mom got in another fight cause i mad this dumbass comment to her that wasn't even the truth and she like blew up at me. Ughh i feel like i can never do shit right around here anymore, so i don't even try and then i get called irrespondsible and shit. My mom seems to think i'm going nowhere in life.. but i know exactly what i'm gonna do.. so really noone has faith in me anymore i guess. Maybe im just a fuck up.. but i can live with that =] ughh whatever. it's like i can never do anything right with my mom.. same with my dad. Sometimes their so difficult and make me feel like some kinda failure. But yeah thats about it.. hopefully the night will get better =] ttyl*
i miss you.. ahh what the hell is my problem!
xO0Ox amanda*
wednesday * I woke up at around 12:15 lol. cause i was up for alongg time the night before. Hmm me and my mom went tanning and i wore a halter top cause it was madd hott out. Gary's been home.. he came back after like a month cause of his work.. well it's probably been like 2 weeks but it feels like a month lol. So me and my mom left and ate at the chineese place. We were just talking about how everyone changes.. it was real sad lol. My mom was talking to me a few days before that to and was like " amanda you know've you've been drunk, tried weed & thought about having sex with people" I was like what the hell, what makes you think that? lol. But i guess most of it's true but im a fucking virgin. Oh well lol. yepp so we went tanning and then went back home. I got ready to go with my dad. He picked me up and i was gonna apply for Bella Vista but fucking you gotta be like 18 or over to serve alchohal.. i'm like why the hell can't i serve it?! i'm not gonna be drinking it! lol. Haha whatever.. so me and my dad ate there, then we went to the mall. My dad was in sucha good mood.. i miss how happy he used to be back then & stuff. But we had fun. I bought three shirts. From Forever 21 i got this plain bright green shirt and from Weathervane i got 2 shirts that say stuff on them.. but i have to return the one that says ' i love attention ' cause its madd short on me & stupid me didn't try it on. We left.. and i went home. I got into a RAGEiNG fight with my mom because she wouldn't let me in the car with Monika which is getting fuckin rediculous because she lets me in the car with Gary and he speeds like madddd. I practically lost my goddamn voice i was so mad. lol but yeah the rest of the night i was on the phone with Jessica & Rachel. Me and Rachel were acting really retarded lol.
0O0OH O0O0H! MY SONG.. ok here goes * oh the weather outside is hot n shitty.. and im burnt to a crisp like p.diddy and since theres no place to go.. holla at holla at a hoeee *
HAHA people liked my song =).. as u can see i have alot of time on my hands.. but Rachel and Annie enjoyed it hahaha.
Thursday * wellllll today i slept ALOT.. me and Lindsay had plans to go to her house and like walk to River Dale Diner lol. but she had work so i just went to walmart w/ my mom.. it was soo boring & i wanted to leave.. we planned to go tanning but we didn't. Umm my sessions are up April 27th for tanning.. its gonna suck cause i have no damn patience to lay in the sun! lol.
- Blahh also today me and my mom got in another fight cause i mad this dumbass comment to her that wasn't even the truth and she like blew up at me. Ughh i feel like i can never do shit right around here anymore, so i don't even try and then i get called irrespondsible and shit. My mom seems to think i'm going nowhere in life.. but i know exactly what i'm gonna do.. so really noone has faith in me anymore i guess. Maybe im just a fuck up.. but i can live with that =] ughh whatever. it's like i can never do anything right with my mom.. same with my dad. Sometimes their so difficult and make me feel like some kinda failure. But yeah thats about it.. hopefully the night will get better =] ttyl*
i miss you.. ahh what the hell is my problem!
xO0Ox amanda*