shit has hit the fan.
umm no update in forever, so i'm breaking out..and gunna update..you excited? you shouldn't be it a 'emo' update.
life is sucking more right now then i can rememeber in the past, its my senior year, and i should be 'living it up' but it seems impossible, i'm overwhelmed with school, i swear i haven't been able to come right home after school since the first day, and its killing me, i have no time for school work either, i need money, alot of it for all this shit and i can ony work two days a week cause of play, a play that i got screwed for a part anyway. It seems like i bring out the worst in people, and it has just hit me, i'm fighting..ot have two people who i really care about mad at me. And it sucks, and everyone i turn to,to just vent things out..i get a speech, i don't want a lecture on how much i suck at life kay? i know. I'm finally coming to relize that this is my last year in huberts and i fucking HATE it i DO NOT want to go to college, and i have no motivation to apply. I sleep in all my spare time, and even in classes i hate bitching in livejouurnal but i think its the only place i can go right now.
i'm sorry...to everyone.
ugh i feel like shit.
♥
life is sucking more right now then i can rememeber in the past, its my senior year, and i should be 'living it up' but it seems impossible, i'm overwhelmed with school, i swear i haven't been able to come right home after school since the first day, and its killing me, i have no time for school work either, i need money, alot of it for all this shit and i can ony work two days a week cause of play, a play that i got screwed for a part anyway. It seems like i bring out the worst in people, and it has just hit me, i'm fighting..ot have two people who i really care about mad at me. And it sucks, and everyone i turn to,to just vent things out..i get a speech, i don't want a lecture on how much i suck at life kay? i know. I'm finally coming to relize that this is my last year in huberts and i fucking HATE it i DO NOT want to go to college, and i have no motivation to apply. I sleep in all my spare time, and even in classes i hate bitching in livejouurnal but i think its the only place i can go right now.
i'm sorry...to everyone.
ugh i feel like shit.
♥