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Alright... I'm going to get this down and try to make sense of it all.
It had been a long time getting over things, a very long time. I was living in my apartment in Japan, only really having contact with Conner after our duties of protecting him had become less prominent and consuming.
After some time though, Joshua said that Conner and I should move to the communal house to be with our friends, in case something were to happen to us while we were alone in Japan. We moved here, and I felt awkward and nervous being that I had been away from so many of the people for so long.
On arriving though, I was intrigued to find that there was a person here who I had never met, but looked in need of a helping hand. Jackel said that this man and I would likely get on, and so I made a point to visit him.
His name was Baern, and Jackel was right, he was in need of some rather serious attention. As such, he moves in to the Torquay house with me, free of charge out of the kindness of Dear Lucius and Suishou's hearts, so as to let me keep better eye on him.
A few weeks onward, Baern and I are good friends, his mental health is improving.... but as always, I complicate things... because in honesty... I fall in love with him. There is a lot of tension, a lot of upset and my feelings emerge, as his are confused, but after a lot of discomfort and insecurity, Baern and I become a couple and I am exceptionally happy.
As a gift, a few more weeks later, I decided since Baern has had several insecurities with my gender, that... I would offer him a sort of odd gift, by means of magic to transform my gender to that of a female for a short while. Force Pestilence was sweet enough to help me with this.
However, my gift was cut short when Joshua informed me I must be turned back. The twist was of course... when I was on my way to do so, to change back, Hakkyuu informed me that my female body... was pregnant. I'm pregnant.
I don't know how this happened, since Baern informed me that he "burned?" or something like that... I don't rightly understand it. That and I am so used to being male, i did not contemplate.
I am shocked, afraid and utterly amazed, but also... I think after the initial fright of it being so sudden and e being so young... I am ready for this and I am ecstatic about it.
Someone loves me enough... there is no one else they want more than me. They will not leave me for someone else, or because... I am "too nice" for them. Someone loves me, and I am so so lucky.
So... I am sorry for any trouble this has caused... but I have no choice but to go on with this pregnancy no matter how odd it may be. Things will work out for the best somehow I am sure.