i think i had an epiphany
it is me who hurts myself
because i listen to the hurting voices all around me
and pretend that they make a difference
today at lunch.
i was in one of those completely - disconnected from my body - sort of moods.
30 minutes alone everyday can do that to you
so much watching and feeling watched
why does everything matter so much?
sometimes i go to the bathroom, just to check the mirror and make sure its still me
i dont want to write
but i continue anyway
sometimes when im watching people i think about how they dont even know i exsist
but they still feel eyes watching them...
there's always eyes
ive been comparing myself to other girls a lot.
wondering why i am not more like them
and cant make myself look or act like another person
but then when im alone and dissconnected i think its a lot easier to love myself
when i've got nothing left to compare myself to
im a better person
when i let go
oh yeah
i still hate myself
because i listen to the hurting voices all around me
and pretend that they make a difference
today at lunch.
i was in one of those completely - disconnected from my body - sort of moods.
30 minutes alone everyday can do that to you
so much watching and feeling watched
why does everything matter so much?
sometimes i go to the bathroom, just to check the mirror and make sure its still me
i dont want to write
but i continue anyway
sometimes when im watching people i think about how they dont even know i exsist
but they still feel eyes watching them...
there's always eyes
ive been comparing myself to other girls a lot.
wondering why i am not more like them
and cant make myself look or act like another person
but then when im alone and dissconnected i think its a lot easier to love myself
when i've got nothing left to compare myself to
im a better person
when i let go
oh yeah
i still hate myself