Good morning!
So I'm sitting here drinking chai (that's tea for you non hindi speakers) and thinking - what do I want to do with my life?
Now I suppose a bunch of people are gonna think to themselves - what does she mean what does she want to do with her life? Didn't she get married? Isn't *that* what she wanted to do with her life?
And I say - all good points! Yes, I got married, and yes that *is* what I want to do. But that's not it. I don't want to *just* be married.
Careerwise, what do I want to do? And this is where I draw a blank (I almost wrote bank, dear god I wish it were that easy to get money, LoL)
Do I want to go back to school? Not overly, in fact no - not really.
Do I want to work at a convenience/grocery store for the rest of my life? HELL NO! (okay, so I have one definite career idea - no grocery store! LoL)
So what does that leave? To most people, that'd leave a lot. But when you have 1.5yrs of university, it doesn't leave quite as much. I've been trying to get into office work - but all places want experience. And I must ask, how does one go about getting experience if they won't hire you? I've been trying insurance brokering - same damn thing. They want you to be experienced. And that honestly puzzles me - I know experience is good...buuuuuuuut, what about youth? Don't any companies want youth? (The places I've looked at have admitted that the average age of their employees is mid-forties) Don't they realize that one day these people are going to retire? what are they going to do then?
I can't honestly say there is *ONE* company I'd love to work at. It has a wonderful 9-4 shift. Now I know that's picky of me - I don't have a f/t job (two p/t's currently. Although that might change today. I'll either be back down to one, up to three or stay at two - confused? I'll explain later) Anywho, what's wrong with me having at least *something* in mind? I know some years down the road I want kids - not now. Sunny & I can't afford it. And we both believe it's not fair to make our children suffer because we can't afford to have them. That is mighty selfish of us and it's something we *won't* do. So yes, I want kids - that means I want a job that when I have kids, can be flexible. I don't want to be the mom that never goes to school meetings, projects, plays...etc. I don't want to be the mom that can't see her kids play their afterschool sports! I don't want to be the mom that only sees her kids after they've been tucked away in bed. I want to be like my mom, and her mom and her mom before that - I want to PARENT my kids. I want to be there when they fall to help them up and I want to be a part of their lives - and there are some jobs that aren't as inclined to allowing me flexibility. Allowing me to be there when they *need* me. Or when I need them. Because I now know it works both ways.
Okay, so let's get off of my kid rant.
I'm currently working at a convenience store, and as a breakfast cook (hence the reason I'm up a 5am). And I just started as the bfc, yet they want me trained and ready to work by myself (from 5:30 - 11 and 1:30/2:30ish with someone) in under a week. Now if I got in everyday and was able to work that full shift everyday - I think that'd be a stretch but doable. I'm not in everyday - I have another job and sometimes I have to work mornings with them, so I CAN'T come in. I also have an interview this afternoon - so I'm hoping I get that position...it starts out p/t but becomes f/t. I'm not sure what to do about the bfc thing - do I say: there's not even a snowballs chance in hell that I'll be trained in under a week, so let's cut our losses?
Oy!
Anywho, should go and get dressed - feel mucho better now though.
It's nice to let-go of things :D
Now I suppose a bunch of people are gonna think to themselves - what does she mean what does she want to do with her life? Didn't she get married? Isn't *that* what she wanted to do with her life?
And I say - all good points! Yes, I got married, and yes that *is* what I want to do. But that's not it. I don't want to *just* be married.
Careerwise, what do I want to do? And this is where I draw a blank (I almost wrote bank, dear god I wish it were that easy to get money, LoL)
Do I want to go back to school? Not overly, in fact no - not really.
Do I want to work at a convenience/grocery store for the rest of my life? HELL NO! (okay, so I have one definite career idea - no grocery store! LoL)
So what does that leave? To most people, that'd leave a lot. But when you have 1.5yrs of university, it doesn't leave quite as much. I've been trying to get into office work - but all places want experience. And I must ask, how does one go about getting experience if they won't hire you? I've been trying insurance brokering - same damn thing. They want you to be experienced. And that honestly puzzles me - I know experience is good...buuuuuuuut, what about youth? Don't any companies want youth? (The places I've looked at have admitted that the average age of their employees is mid-forties) Don't they realize that one day these people are going to retire? what are they going to do then?
I can't honestly say there is *ONE* company I'd love to work at. It has a wonderful 9-4 shift. Now I know that's picky of me - I don't have a f/t job (two p/t's currently. Although that might change today. I'll either be back down to one, up to three or stay at two - confused? I'll explain later) Anywho, what's wrong with me having at least *something* in mind? I know some years down the road I want kids - not now. Sunny & I can't afford it. And we both believe it's not fair to make our children suffer because we can't afford to have them. That is mighty selfish of us and it's something we *won't* do. So yes, I want kids - that means I want a job that when I have kids, can be flexible. I don't want to be the mom that never goes to school meetings, projects, plays...etc. I don't want to be the mom that can't see her kids play their afterschool sports! I don't want to be the mom that only sees her kids after they've been tucked away in bed. I want to be like my mom, and her mom and her mom before that - I want to PARENT my kids. I want to be there when they fall to help them up and I want to be a part of their lives - and there are some jobs that aren't as inclined to allowing me flexibility. Allowing me to be there when they *need* me. Or when I need them. Because I now know it works both ways.
Okay, so let's get off of my kid rant.
I'm currently working at a convenience store, and as a breakfast cook (hence the reason I'm up a 5am). And I just started as the bfc, yet they want me trained and ready to work by myself (from 5:30 - 11 and 1:30/2:30ish with someone) in under a week. Now if I got in everyday and was able to work that full shift everyday - I think that'd be a stretch but doable. I'm not in everyday - I have another job and sometimes I have to work mornings with them, so I CAN'T come in. I also have an interview this afternoon - so I'm hoping I get that position...it starts out p/t but becomes f/t. I'm not sure what to do about the bfc thing - do I say: there's not even a snowballs chance in hell that I'll be trained in under a week, so let's cut our losses?
Oy!
Anywho, should go and get dressed - feel mucho better now though.
It's nice to let-go of things :D