Stress
This doesn't go to Newton's 4th Law for good reasons.
I usually don't feel stress. But I'm only human and I have my limits too.
I copied homework today.
I have at least 20 pages of Physics reading to do. A page takes about half an hour.
I have Econ quiz this thursday and I don't understand a thing in class.
I have a very important formal lab report due soon, and I have an appointment with my lab lecturer and I haven't sort out the questions I need to ask her yet.
And if this is not enough, my used to be best friend is not helping, and I hate him.
I never knew I'm capable of being so stress. I think I never used to feel so stress because I never cared about my studies this much before. But now I have an aim, and I want to get straight As this sem. Now I can say it out loud. I WANT TO GET STRAIGHT As! But I'm far away from it. I'm about to screw my so far doing well Econs. I'm already screwed at Physics.
I worked so so so hard for Physics. But what happen? I lose to some cheaters in class! Fuck!
I know well that I'm capable of greater heights, but it just isn't reflecting in my results.
And my used to be best friend, I hate him so much now. I loath looking at his face. I never knew I'm capable of hating someone this much. I never wanted to believe we'll end up hating each other even though he predicted this long time ago. I am always the one who tries to fix our friendship. I'm fixing it at one end, but what does that help? It's gotta be a mutual thing, if he doesnt want to do it, it can't be done. This is the sad truth. We can't live together. Part of me still hope this isn't the sad truth, that I'll look back a few days after this and laugh at all this hate notes.
All this stress is not gonna stio me. I am stronger than this. There are so many people who look down on me you have no idea. I hate these people. Part of me were glad they look down on me, they don't know me. Of course if I end up not achieving anything, this will sound like something a loser would say. But I'm better than that. I wish I could say I have nothing to prove to these look down-ers. But that's not true. I do want them to see what I'm capable of. I know this is a wrong motivation for me to work hard. But whatever, this isn't my main motivation anyway. I'm evil and I know it. I want people to see the weak me outside. I want to be in disguise under this weak shell.
I know I'll eventually pull myself together. And in fact, I think it's going to be the moment I finished writing this!
Damn! It feels great to let all these out!!
I usually don't feel stress. But I'm only human and I have my limits too.
I copied homework today.
I have at least 20 pages of Physics reading to do. A page takes about half an hour.
I have Econ quiz this thursday and I don't understand a thing in class.
I have a very important formal lab report due soon, and I have an appointment with my lab lecturer and I haven't sort out the questions I need to ask her yet.
And if this is not enough, my used to be best friend is not helping, and I hate him.
I never knew I'm capable of being so stress. I think I never used to feel so stress because I never cared about my studies this much before. But now I have an aim, and I want to get straight As this sem. Now I can say it out loud. I WANT TO GET STRAIGHT As! But I'm far away from it. I'm about to screw my so far doing well Econs. I'm already screwed at Physics.
I worked so so so hard for Physics. But what happen? I lose to some cheaters in class! Fuck!
I know well that I'm capable of greater heights, but it just isn't reflecting in my results.
And my used to be best friend, I hate him so much now. I loath looking at his face. I never knew I'm capable of hating someone this much. I never wanted to believe we'll end up hating each other even though he predicted this long time ago. I am always the one who tries to fix our friendship. I'm fixing it at one end, but what does that help? It's gotta be a mutual thing, if he doesnt want to do it, it can't be done. This is the sad truth. We can't live together. Part of me still hope this isn't the sad truth, that I'll look back a few days after this and laugh at all this hate notes.
All this stress is not gonna stio me. I am stronger than this. There are so many people who look down on me you have no idea. I hate these people. Part of me were glad they look down on me, they don't know me. Of course if I end up not achieving anything, this will sound like something a loser would say. But I'm better than that. I wish I could say I have nothing to prove to these look down-ers. But that's not true. I do want them to see what I'm capable of. I know this is a wrong motivation for me to work hard. But whatever, this isn't my main motivation anyway. I'm evil and I know it. I want people to see the weak me outside. I want to be in disguise under this weak shell.
I know I'll eventually pull myself together. And in fact, I think it's going to be the moment I finished writing this!
Damn! It feels great to let all these out!!