O boy,o
Let's see where will the wind blow me with this entry. At least I hope it will get posted and not get lost on me like the last time.
Anyway, tons of crap is comeing my way every single day and today didn't seem to be different. The school administration compleatly sucks and when they mess up they get all quiet and no questions can be asked! Screw them, I shall rise above that! On another note I am facing a serious UNPLESANT discusion with my father. After refusing me a small amount of money he has decided to play a more active role in my life by telling me what I can do and what I CAN'T do! Sorry dad its kind of too late. I am 18 now and let's see that makes me my own legal guardian... not that you ever were one to me anyway. Excuse my next sentence but I can't seem to contain the anger that I have for that stupid, drunken, retarded bitch of his. She thinks she can buy me 2 shirts and act all nice to me infront of his highness the FATHER, and that will be enought to win my love. I have a news for you lady NEVER GONA HAPPEN! She started yelling at me on the phone the other day and what do you think I did? Of course- I hung up on her. Now dearest daddy is giving me a lecture on how I should treat her with respect. Alright, news for you too sir, SHE IS NOBODY TO ME! O, the story of my life. Everyone is trying to control me or at least to get me to listen to their advise. Well that didn't do me any good 10 yrs ago so what are the chances now?
I miss his sorry ass. He always knows exactly what to say in situations like these to make me feel better. I called today but nobody picked up. I pray to God he is safe. Guys here are so lucky that they are not forced to join the army for a minimum of 9 months. If I could just hug him for one quick second I will have strenght and drive to get to June. It is so very much that he means to me. My prince charming. My stepping rock in life. mwah
Anyway, tons of crap is comeing my way every single day and today didn't seem to be different. The school administration compleatly sucks and when they mess up they get all quiet and no questions can be asked! Screw them, I shall rise above that! On another note I am facing a serious UNPLESANT discusion with my father. After refusing me a small amount of money he has decided to play a more active role in my life by telling me what I can do and what I CAN'T do! Sorry dad its kind of too late. I am 18 now and let's see that makes me my own legal guardian... not that you ever were one to me anyway. Excuse my next sentence but I can't seem to contain the anger that I have for that stupid, drunken, retarded bitch of his. She thinks she can buy me 2 shirts and act all nice to me infront of his highness the FATHER, and that will be enought to win my love. I have a news for you lady NEVER GONA HAPPEN! She started yelling at me on the phone the other day and what do you think I did? Of course- I hung up on her. Now dearest daddy is giving me a lecture on how I should treat her with respect. Alright, news for you too sir, SHE IS NOBODY TO ME! O, the story of my life. Everyone is trying to control me or at least to get me to listen to their advise. Well that didn't do me any good 10 yrs ago so what are the chances now?
I miss his sorry ass. He always knows exactly what to say in situations like these to make me feel better. I called today but nobody picked up. I pray to God he is safe. Guys here are so lucky that they are not forced to join the army for a minimum of 9 months. If I could just hug him for one quick second I will have strenght and drive to get to June. It is so very much that he means to me. My prince charming. My stepping rock in life. mwah