Hidden Emotions
What a day... woke up... early.. had to go to school even though i had a free first... although it wasn't that bad cause really i'd rather be at school then at home... sick i know. Thought about Kristin my whole free.... felt really bad... last night we hung out but one i slept alot cause i don't feel good and too when i was awake we just fought... except we weren't really fighting cause he didn't do anything i just kept getting mad at him.. for nothing... so now i feel bad... but i think he forgave me... except today i was mad at him again... but i don't even think he new... which is probibly good cause i didn't even have a reason to get mad at him... i guess its just because he never realizes how I feel... but how can i expect him to know when i don't tell him.... and how can i tell him when i won't even admit to myself what i feel cause i hate it... augh!!!!!!
I finally figured something out too.... my best friend has replaced me and thats why she doesn't need to try to fix our relationship... so i guess its time for me to give up and let go... the only problem is i don't want to .... i miss her.... i have no one with out her.. we did everything together and now we barely talk to each other..... *crys* so this is me... friendless..... and soon to be boyfriendless if i don't give this up..
I finally figured something out too.... my best friend has replaced me and thats why she doesn't need to try to fix our relationship... so i guess its time for me to give up and let go... the only problem is i don't want to .... i miss her.... i have no one with out her.. we did everything together and now we barely talk to each other..... *crys* so this is me... friendless..... and soon to be boyfriendless if i don't give this up..